I wanted to be friends with my ex but he wants me back or maybe just want to have sex with me...
Last January pa lang, i already let him go na. I wanted to leave him bc i'm Emotionally drained. Shamed for asking sex. Incompatible kami sa bed like gusto niya siya lang lahat kainin ako never niya nakain. Sobrang starfish niya. punyeta! Ako yung nag lead ng relationship. Hatid sundo him and i feel like he doesn't have any plan for us. So girlies, u know how exhausting this is!
Anyway, 2 weeks before we broke up, first time niya ako kinain. putangina ang sarap pala. gago sa 3 years namin dun lng ako nakain. i was excited and was looking forward for the next sex. sabi ko, "babe, kailan tayo mag sex ulit? hehe sarap mo palang kumain. bastusin mo pa nga ako 🥺🤪". you know what he said? "ang bastos mo. napaka formal mong babae bakit ganyan ka??" and there my friend, i decided na ayokona. I didn't talk to him and sobrang drained na ako and not just sexually but affected yung emotions ko as his gf. I felt rejected and neglected na. 2 days before the official break up, we still had sex. one last bembang but i was on my period and sabi niya, "hindi kita makain. next time bawi ako ha?" gago, nka schedule na yung break up mo.
so, on the day ng break up, iyak iyakan na ako and all. But i still want to make friends with him bc we were fine naman kasi. better off as friends than lovers kasi hindi kmi talaga nag match ng libog and sobrang non chalant ya sa akin. walang ka effort effort. but friends? pwede talaga eh. kahit barkada pa.
Now he keeps on texting me and said na miss niya daw ako and wants me back or maybe just wanted to have sex with me. and i was like, "you had me for 3 fcking years!!" hindi man lang ka nag pa bibo sakin. we couldve done a lot of things pero sobrang non chalant mo you don't know how lucky you were na mataas yung libido ng gf mo. now you want me backkk?? he was ungrateful and hindi ko na feel na may ambag sya sa life ko. now that we broke up, parang he never existed sa life ko. he was my first bf and first in EVERYTHING. he couldve been extra pabibo bc i was a lucky catch for him. the least he could do was to show how much he appreciated me but he didn't.
i have needs naman and i did love this man. I wanted to do it but at the same time, what for? it's not gonna change naman eh and if he does, it's no longer genuine but only did it to have me back.