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I (21F) have been on 5 monitored cycles of letrozole (2.5mg) with TI. I ovulated on all of them successfully and all ended in failures. Each cycles ovulation timing and cycle length varied slightly, but were all somewhat regular. Husband's SA is normal as well.

My age doesn't help me, as many doctors don't take me seriously due to it. I suggested doing an HSG in the 4th cycle, but my doc said I didn't probably need it and we could try by the 6th if needed. I guess that's what's warranted me to make this post.

1. Does so many failed cycles at my age indicate some kind of issue/abnormality?

2. What other procedures/things should I try other than the HSG to improve my chances?

3. Please share your own success stories if you've experienced something similar! Feeling really hopeless as of now.

To preface, I have known my in-laws and husband since childhood, but I was never really close with them. I got married to the younger son, and everybody expected me to fit in easily since, yk, I know them.

Surprisingly, compared to the elder son's wife who had a proper arranged marriage set-up (aka strangers), I still am not as "open" around them. For example, I feel like I'm always in a defensive/survival mode around them and looking out for anything that could trigger me. Any triggers that I should be prepared for, any potential disrespect that I need to stand up for, etc.

I'm really bad at talking for myself or asserting boundaries, maybe that's where this comes from. Moreover, I grew up away from my home country where my in-laws (including SIL) are from and residing in. A lot of learning gaps, miscommunication, cultural differences occur due to this. I feel like people back home are really blunt in the way they speak as well, which causes a lot of emotional damage + I'm not able to speak up for myself like that in the moment which causes long-term resentment.

At the end of the day, I do have the advantage of being childhood friends with them, and a lot of leeway as a DIL. But I still feel super out of place and don't know what to do! It's been more than 2Y. Please give advice on how to become a stronger, less defensive, and more open/sincere DIL!