I told my GF about how horny i feel, she said im not normal, what can i do?
Hi reddit, well i'm writing to try gather same opinion on what to docnow with my GF.
Me M20 and F20. We met 8 months ago at school, love at first sight for both of us, got together 4 months later.
Since the beginning of relation we've gone out 6 times due to homework and pressure from her parents to only see each other at her really small apartment, 5-hour train ride from mine. Both in our first relationship. She brings up the topic of sex first. In 4 months i had fingered her 2 times, but never the other way around, i was okay with that because she told me she liked my care on her.
(In different occasion she got near to me but got scared to even get the hand close to do for me, one time for 1 whole hour she keep try even if i asked he to stop because i was really imbarazed)
All this time, I've been extremely alert for a not finished intercourse we almost had on Tuesday, due the fact that her dad came home from work (again i did for her but she dident for me) like every other time when i couldent sleep all night.
This morning I feel overwhelmed by babysitting her little brother for 3 days, never a moment alone, i tried to hide it, but the phrase "I'll have to jerk off more" slips out, referring to the fact that I don't want to ruin our time together with my unrequited desire.
I would never push her if she's not up to it and also talked her about this, but not about ALL the times this sensation hitted me in order not to guilt trip her. I realize I said something stupid, and when I try to correct myself, she tells me I need to talk to a specialist and i'm not normal.
She then goes to her bathroom to talk with her father bursting into tears while i hear the words "Toxic" and "Take a train".
From that moment on she sistematically avoided being alone to talk with me.
Come evening, I brought up the subject, ask if she wanted to talk about it. I give her my reasons and after three times asking hers she tells me to give her space and that I disgusted her.
I truly love this girl, more than anything else. I know I'm too emotional, and now feel like a monster, but I really want to keep beeing her safe place.
TL;DR After days of stress and hornyness i said i had to masturbate more in order not to be stressed around my gf, she said i'm not normal