u/bassguitarist999

This is my first post here, so I really didn’t know what to mark it as.

Anyways I was offered to join a game this Saturday and I decided to play as a chaotic neutral wizard. I already have a full backstory and character design. I don’t know much about D&D besides the basics. I have my own dice already at least, but I wanna be as prepared as I can be cause I don’t wanna walk in fully blind. What are some basic things I should know or stuff to look over?

I babysit a super adorable little girl really frequently and like all kids her age, she has a lot of energy. She loves it when we go outside and play on her bike and is constantly moving, but I can’t always match her energy. I have school and I’m prepping for college this upcoming year, and it can be really draining some days. She hates it when I say that I can’t play for a little bit and gets really upset. The only way she will do something on her own is when she watches tv, but I dont wanna use that whenever I’m tired. So, how do I encourage her to play on her own more?

Edit: Im not asking her to play alone for hours on end. Im talking 20 minutes tops. If we do watch a show, I try to limit it to an episode or two. Sorry I should’ve said this earlier. I love my job and I love this little girl.

This has happened at least four times now. I feel ok about myself. I feel like I'm decent enough. Now, all I see when I look at myself is a failure. I'm not skinny, pretty, smart, or anything. I'm just there to give other people a problem they don't need to deal with. I wanna leave everyone I know and hide from the world. I've been wanting to hurt myself again so bad, but I can't hide it from my boyfriend or my best friend. They both know when I'm off and I don't deserve them at all. They deserve to be around someone better. Maybe if I was dead everything would be ok. Everyone would be better off without me being a parasite. I just wanna disappear