u/beautyincarnated

I really REALLY REALLY tried everything, I tried hobbies, socializing, breaking same habits, meeting new people, focusing on work, myself, healing etc etc, I tried working out. Been a year+ and I'm still stuck. Atp I just came into agreement that I'm never gonna find someone, I don't even get excited anymore when I think of "partnership" and "life with a soulmate (or whatever)" I don't want to get married anymore, I don't want anything to do with anyone and it's stupid. I feel like a stone. The worst part is that every excitement that I had for my hobbies is slowly shrinking because I don't have him to share it with. Or whenever I'm happy I somewhat feel half happy because I miss him. What do I do?