u/bec4523

I’m a mom that works full time. A partner that feels like we’re drifting apart, but it feels so good when I drink. I have 1+ bottles of wine a night. It’s my escape, it clears my brain from my ADHD and gives me that dopamine rush. I am actually productive when I drink, it clears the ADHD barrier of doing things I don’t want to do. I guess I’m a mess, I need to snap back to reality. But I feel this isn’t my fault. The clarity I get when I drink is amazing. How long can I stay in this bubble? I’m 32 now, I need to get better but it’s staying with me. Real life is shit, dealing with relationships is hard. I just want to be alone in a small place, doing what I want to do. But that’s selfish.