What keeps you going?
In life, I mean. I'm currently going through a season of crap, and it seems like for the past several years it's been a regular cycle of seasons of crap. We all know having ADHD is like living on hard mode already.
I'm single and childfree by choice. The only problem with this setup is that I don't think financially surviving as a single person is sustainable anymore. I make a salary that about 4 years ago would have been good (software industry), but things have increasingly been getting tight every year, and I'm fairly certain AI will replace my role within a year. Add to that - my dog is getting a malignant tumor removed (prognosis unknown until it gets tested), having just had his second knee surgery in March (two within as many years). I also had to replace my entire HVAC system that same month. I can just manage the debt for now, but if I lose my job, I will probably lose my house. I don't have the money to vacation, and anyway I actually get stressed traveling and hate traveling solo. My one day of "vacation" coming up (doing a river float with my long distance-ish friends) has now been sidelined due to my dog's recovery from surgery.
All of this makes me wonder, what am I even working towards? What is the light at the end of the tunnel? I've battled depression all my life, suicidal at times, and my current med regimen literally saved my life and is working. But the state of the USA, and the world, and my own little difficult bubble make me feel hopeless.