I made a comphet journal
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A couple years ago I was in a heterosexual marriage, genuinely convinced I was just bad at being happy. I thought I was bi. I knew I liked women, I just didn’t realize yet that I didn’t like men. Then one night I found this subreddit.
I remember reading posts for hours and feeling this insane sense of recognition. Like suddenly there were hundreds of women describing feelings I had never been able to explain properly, even to myself. At some point, something in me relaxed. I realized I wasn’t broken, or cold, or incapable of love. I was just gay.
That was a few years ago now. I came out, changed my life completely, and became a much more honest version of myself. This community gave me language for something I had spent years trying to understand alone. It probably saved me a lot of time and confusion.
A while back I started turning a lot of those thoughts and feelings into a guided journal. Things like doubt, grief, denial, recognition, all the strange in-between parts of realizing you’re queer later in life. It ended up becoming a 40 prompt journal across six chapters.
It’s called Retroactively Queer i A Journal for People Who Googled “Am I Gay” at 2am.
It’s available as a PDF download if anyone wants it.