u/big_ass0122

I (25F), have a boyfriend who has a huge trust issue. Due to his past where his ex cheated on him, it somehow projected on our relationship. I have a lot of guy friends, I actually did work on live streaming on the black app. Before i met him, i somehow have numbers of followers on TT as I did work there. just recently, i have a post on that app then a follower commented on my video. he sent that to me asking me who he is. i told him that it is just a follower, but then he told me that it was “one of my boys.”

I think he doesn’t trust me enough for saying like that. I actually set all my accounts in private as I do not want someone to ruin the relationship that I have been building. every time we fight, there is always “go to your other guys” or “i know that you’re hiding something from me” or “you’re just gonna cheat on me” like where is trust? we are together for almost a year yet the whole year of 2026 is full of doubts.

i am so so tired of proving to him that he is enough.

we are in a long distance relationship for almost a year now. we always got into a petty fight ever since January. we tried so hard to fix our relationship, fix each other’s attitude. mind you, he has a toddler so basically a single dad and my first official boyfriend.

we started fighting last January like a huge fight because of my overthinking — i overthink a lot because of his situation. i am new to this kind of situation. i just knew his situation when the mother of his child messaged me and somehow ruining our relationship. but over the time, i outgrow my overthinking on that situation because i don’t want that thing to ruin what we have built. before i say the “yes,” i opened everything to him — my past. he was not fond of it as he always always use that against me.

i lost so much guy friends because of my relationship even though those friends of mine didn’t even do a single thing to him. idk if it is jealousy or insecurity. but then again, it is fine with me, for the betterment of our relationship. last week, him and his friends were in a videocall and somewhat he asked me if i can join their vc since his friends were asking about me. but when one of his girl friends joined the video call, she greeted mg boyfriend as “baby” and my boyfriend replied also to her as “baby.” i got mad about that, because how insensitive it was? like i am not allowed to be friendly even on my circle yet he is allowed to be like that? we got in a big fight because he rather end our relationship than fixing that attitude. but ending, i lowered my walls just to fix our relationship.

ff, since we are in a ldr, we sleep call. suddenly i woke up in the middle of the night. so i asked him if he ate or did the chores that he always telling me for the past days. my tone was kinda sharp or harsh since i just woke up and i got irritated because i have a feeling that he didn’t do any single thing since he was watching on his computer. he got irritated by my tone and guess what, we had a petty fight. but then again, i lowered my pride just for him to be okay but instead of fixing things, he told me that i ruined his day. like for real? how about mine?

this relationship is so tiring.