Fifteen day Tbreak
My partner is coming to my city in a couple of days (we're long distance). He recently asked if I would be interested in going 15 days without smoking before he arrives
Previously I talked to him about how I really want to decrease the amount I smoke and become a moderate smoker instead of someone who over consumes and abuses cannabis (expensive as hellll, don't even get high, just smoking for the sake of habit and addiction) I think this is his attempt at helping me cut back which is kinda sweet
I agreed and currently am on day 4, last time I took a tbreak the withdrawal was more physical, I was just craving and itching to smoke and was extremely agitated over small things, but now its more emotional then last time. Im actually doing well with cravings. They come and go, and it isn't anywhere near like it was last time. But lately, my emotions feel so much stronger. I realized I fell into a habit of just smoking any negative emotion away, but now im just being thrown full force into my own personal emotional hell.
Has anyone else felt similar? And if so, how have you coped?
I also think Im carrying around a lot of guilt. I feel guilty that I made myself numb for so long instead of actually dealing with what I was feeling. Im trying not to beat myself up over it, but it's hard.