I’m 6’3”, fat, and sad about my penis
I 20m am 6’3” 300 pounds with size 13-15 feet. My hands are huge but my penis is below average at 4”long and 4” in circumference. I was circumcised as a baby and grew up obese and still am obese. I feel like crap thinking abt how things could be different if I didn’t grow up obese or circumcised. My only hope is if I do lose weight, more of my penis will come out. The saying “Comparison is the thief of joy.” really is true.
Growing up I was exposed to pornography at a very early age and was addicted to masturbating and would do it almost everyday. It slowed down for a bit but continued throughout my high school years. The amount of times is probably over 1000 just in highschool alone not even including life after highschool. So this has probably also affected my penile growth.
I just feel not good enough considering i’m fat with a small penis. I have a girlfriend and she doesn’t mind it and has never said it was small, but her previous ex was 7 inches… and the thought of that kills me. She also said smt along the lines of “the bigger ones hurt” to me 😂✌️. When I first got with my girlfriend, I quit porn and masturbation for a good while but have slowly gotten back into it for a temporary escape because of my feelings.
I’m trying to better myself by watching my diet and working out at the gym, but knowing I can’t change anything about my size really kills me and affects the way I think and the way I feel about myself. I’ve had depression since the 4th grade because of bullying and my situation doesn’t help that.
I just wish one day I could wake up and everything be different. Life the past year has felt so bad(life after high school)
I’m in between the feeling of existential dread and acceptance over it but can never solidify my feelings on one or the other. If I lose weight maybe it’ll get longer but it won’t get thicker. Is there anyone out there that has experienced maybe not all of these things at once but individual things (obesity, porn addiction, small penis) what did you do to make yourself feel better and if you were overweight and lost weight did it get bigger when you did lose weight?
Any words or advice helps
Thank you for reading, advice from anyone experiencing a similar situation would help a lot 🙏