Artist as Spiritual Creative caught between extremes - Otto Rank
I came across this book by Otto Rank by reading Ernest Becker's "The Denial of Death" and it just floored me (both books actually lol). The idea of being able to act creatively because you don't know the origin and motives, and the inability to act because of too much self-consciousness and guilt... Rank's 'artist' is caught between these two extremes, but is able to find some kind of middle path, transforming the guilt into an ideal.
It resonated with me, I find myself terrified to put my work out there because I can't know the consequences beforehand, and then when I just go for it I guess it has been transformed by my worrying into a sort of happy medium?
Curious if anyone else identified with this back and forth in their creative process?