u/bluereadsthestars

[Medyo long post]

Can I just say, na-confirm kong bading talaga ako nung na-experience ko na i-love ang so ko 🥹🤍 I’m 28 and she’s turning 28 in a few weeks.

Nag-start kami as friends almost 2 years ago, met her through a friend, naging magkalaro sa kung anu-anong games, and the rest was history. Ngayon, wahahahahaha dami kong natututunan about myself dahil sa kanya. Nagbago rin tingin ko sa sex, kasi wow ang sarap pala talaga, gets ko na yung hype hahaha

I also used to think sex was overrated. Yung experience ko kasi dati, naisip ko, “Ito na yun? Akala ko ba masaap?” Up unril I met my baby, the loml 🙂‍↔️

Natatawa ako kasi pag napag-uusapan namin, sinasabi niya parang ang saglit lang daw ng ginagawa namin. Sabi ko, huh e madalas nag-uumpisa kami ng 10PM, minsan earlier pa, pero may araw na, hindi pa kami tapos 🤭 Quickie na siguro yung apat na oras 🤣 Ihi at water break lang pahinga HAHAHAHAHAHA

Grabe parang hindi siya napapagod, maya’t maya rin natu-turn on ako sa kanya. Pawis na pawis na ako tapos siya nginingitian lang ako nang nakakabaliw na ngiti, hahaha shocks naaalala ko, nakakaulol yung mukha 😆 Sabi niya, wala pa itong mga ginagawa namin. Marami pang pwedeng gawin. Kaya sabi ko, sige, binibigay ko full consent ko. Ready ako bumale-balentong, kahit anong position, ita-try ko. Kahit anong mode, kakayanin ko 🤣

I love how she makes me feel (during sex at sa ibang aspects). I love thinking about her. Minsan kahit wala siyang gawin, nanggigigil ako sa kanya hahaha kaya inaasar niya ako na malibog! Ayan effect niya sakin! Grabe, crush na crush ko pa rin siya hanggang ngayon. Hindi naman din talaga ako mahilig sa sex noon pero ngayon, palagi ko na cine-crave ang baby ko huhuhu. Kahit di kami magkasama, naiisip ko pa lang siya, nanggigigil na ako hahahaha (1.5 way kami, receiver ako 🤪)

Pero honestly, the sex is just a plus. Idk if she feels the same about me pagdating jan kasi it’s just sooooo damn good (newbie kasi ako sa lesbian sex, she’s my first and only, tapos experimenting pa ako, learning and researching 😆) but I just love her entirety. Sure, we aren’t perfect, may mga bagay na kailangan pang i-work on, pero she just makes me so happy in so many ways. God, I love her so much nakakaulol talaga!! Kinikilig ako kahit huminga lang siya 😭

If you’re reading this, I hope you know, and I hope I make you feel how much you mean to me.

Anyway, ayun lang. Miss ko na siya hehe ang bango bango pa niya lagi 😆

Problem: I honestly don’t know how the incorporation of toys during sex works, since this is the first time my so and I are including it

Context: This is my first time ever having sex with toys (actually, hindi pa dumarating pero parating na today yung inorder namin). My so has experience pero I don’t, since first ko siya with women (I’ve only ever had 1 ex and lalaki pa 😭 though now na-confirm ko na talagang bading ako) and I tried watching lesbian porn for research pero parang wala naman ako natututunan. Sabi ko sa kanya, sabihin niya sakin paano at ano gagawin, pero I feel like I need to do my own research first para prepared din ako 😆

Ano ba dapat kong gawin? We’re planning to use a vib and a strap on, and to be honest excited ako and kinakabahan at the same time. Paano ba ang sex with toys? Paanong preparation gagawin ko? Anong gagawin ko during sex? What can I do to make it pleasurable for both of us? One way kami (receiver ako). HUHUHU HELP

UPDATE: Hindi dumating yung delivery 😭

Nag-mark yung rider na out for delivery 2 times since yesterday pweo walang attempt. Already filed a report huhuhu so frustrated and disappointed kasi excited pa man din ako dumating yung toys namin :( Naka-sched pa man din na gagawin namin today huhuhu. Ginawa na lanh namin without the toys for now hahahaha