u/bobhadanaccident

I resigned from my emergency medicine residency. I’ve been ‘in training’ since 2012 and I just had to leave my program after 3 years. I was supposed to graduate last week, and I didn’t for a few reasons, some very much related to medical conditions which I unfortunately have no control over, but it just hurts. I’ve gone through some of the most intense training education has to offer for what feels like nothing.

Wild going through all of this to be left with a strong sense of sadness and defeat. Did I deserve it? I guess at this point it doesn’t matter. Not doing any of the SI stuff, but I’m just struggling.

Fucking wild to have an MD with 3 years of post-graduate training and no job.

I’ve got plans to try again, working yet another 80/hr a week job to earn practically minimum wage. It’ll all end up working out, but I hate it all, and I need to escape that.

Perhaps more importantly, I’ve lived an adrenaline filled dangerous lifestyle for all of my adult life because it’s more fun that way, but now I’m just drinking, being unproductive, and doing more harm than good.

I don’t know what to do right meow and the uncertainty kills me.

E.S. Since you know my username, I honestly hope you don’t come across this, and if you do, I’m all good. Just bummed.

*end rant*