Lost Wife 3 years ago and find it hard with confused feelings
First of all, I am very sorry for my rambling I just find it hard to put into words.
I lost my wife 3 years ago after being married to her for 45 years and they were very caring and loving years.
I have not been with anyone since she passed. I find myself after this 3rd year being hard than the first two, every night going to bed I miss the feeling of her skin next to mine as we snuggle. It was like we were one person when we did and I missed that.
I feel that I could never be married again, but you never know what the future is going to bring you. Is it possible to find someone that would also feel the need for the something?
I feel at this point I think, I would like to find a widowed woman who had a husband that was very loving and caring to her as my wife was to me. So we can share our feelings and each of us would know that the other one would totally understand how the other one feels in the grief, pain and sadness that we feel from our loss.
I truly feel that only another widowed person can really understand my feelings.
Someone that I could do things together so we can both talk about our feelings. Knowing that each of us can totally understand our feelings and maybe would be able to help each other.
I’m not a very social person so I know that I do not socialize very much and that will make it difficult to find someone. So how do you do it?
It’s hard to say these things and hard to think it. I am 76 and kind of old-fashioned I feel you should be married to do these things, but I find myself all mixed up in my feelings.
I hope it’s ok to ask questions but I’m just curious it seems like we can be free here. I think because we are in the same boat and could understand our feelings.
That’s why I’m asking what do other people feel and think about this and have they experienced this themselves and what did they do?
Thank you for your time and I am sorry for all of you who have lost your loved ones, and I know the pain and sadness that you’re dealing with. To all of you try and take care the best you can.
I don’t think it’s wrong in how I feel but I’m just curious what other people think.
I’m so confused in all my feelings, but I don’t know if other people feel the same way or have felt this way.
I am trying to cope with all the emotions and feelings and to see what other people are experiencing.
The love I had with my wife was that we were inseparable. All we wanted to do is be together holding hands everywhere we went and going for rides. We loved each other in any and every way we could.
We just love being together more than anything else. We didn’t need other people we had each other and that’s all we needed and that’s all we wanted. I still feel that I’m not very social. I don’t care to be around a lot of people I just like things quiet and peaceful.
The loss of my wife is more than I could ever have imagined but after reading other people’s stories on here I do feel I’m not alone and it does help some.