can someone help me see I'm not falling behind? I'm 23 and feel like a failure
I know it'll sound stupid to people older than me but I'm turning 24 next month and I feel like I haven't achieved even half the things I should have by now. I've only had shitty jobs and my CV sucks. It's hard to get hired for shitty jobs so the ones that suck less are absolutely out of reach. I've had some major issues involving abuse during my childhood that my friends bring up when I tell them how I feel, but I think they're not an excuse. I should have done more, I hate myself for not pushing me to do stuff and I guess it's not productive or healthy but what else can I do?? nothing? I feel like I'm already doing that... my girlfriend tells me she's proud of me because I'm trying really hard even tho my dad passed away early this year and I see the point, I know I'm struggling, but this was 5 months ago, it's not excuse for the rest of my life. I'm even more overwhelmed because I have the constant thought that "I have to make my dad proud", both because of me and because of my relatives saying that, and I don't know. I feel so damn lost. I only want a job where I'm not yelled at.