and he told me wanting to get treatment for my ocd was a cop out and that my other reasons were “stupid.” he also said it was impulsive and he wouldn’t let me stop therapy then and that i had to do two more sessions. i feel so confused because we’ve worked together for 3 years and i feel like every time i’ve tried to move on to a different therapist he convinces me not to.
and he told me wanting to get treatment for my ocd was a cop out and that my other reasons were “stupid.” he also said it was impulsive and he wouldn’t let me stop therapy then and that i had to do two more sessions. i feel so confused because we’ve worked together for 3 years and i feel like every time i’ve tried to move on to a different therapist he convinces me not to.
anyone else have obsessions about who they are as a person? i’m constantly questioning myself, whether i’m a bad person, thinking i have a personality disorder etc.
i (female) see a psychodynamic therapist (male) and can’t seem to get over the fact that it feels like he gets frustrated with me. also, he recently changed us to a “leasing” schedule which i had never heard of before (because i kept switching the virtual last minute or needing to move the session around, but i was dealing with chronic illness and was on medical leave). the leasing schedule is where it has to be in person, same time/day each week, no contact between sessions about schedule changes, if i can’t make it because im sick or on vacation (even if planned weeks/months in advance), i have to pay the cancellation fee(??). it feels really harsh and not fair and doesn’t make sense to me.
i have had some progress in areas of my life but also i feel so tired of pathologizing and questioning everything about my experience.
would you leave?