Grief about this process
I had a biopsy of my endometrium following two early pregnancy losses (from IUI), before moving on to my first FET. I just got the results of the biopsy - I have chronic endometritis which is bacterial and very fixable. I should be thrilled but right now I’m just full of grief.
This is fixable and could’ve been fixed before my first two losses from IUI. Why isn’t a biopsy something that they give you the option to do before IUI? I was told an HSG was an option but not a biopsy. I did the HSG.
In the long run I know this will just be another hurdle we overcome. People tell me to keep going. My first two pregnancies were from my second and third IUI and now we’ve moved onto IVF. We have five stellar embryos ready for transfer. The endometritis problem is fixable with antibiotics!
But I just keep thinking about my first pregnancy and how I’d be due in two months. Instead I’m still waiting for a transfer for the chance to be pregnant.
Sorry to be a Debbie downer. Just hard and after all the hoops we had to jump through just to be able to try (donor sperm agreement, FDA testing) and two losses, I was really excited for the egg retrieval win and just feels like the goal post got moved back again with this new news.
Edit to add: I am curious if others struggle with the one step forward two steps back feeling of this process? How do you get through it?