u/br0why

My sister is finally taking her meds, being consistent with her psych appointments and her studies, even has recently started socializing again.

The thing is we are no longer on speaking terms since a while ago. We do live together so we talk about the apartment and the cats, but nothing more. All i know is what i noticed and what i heard from my mom or from our roommate.

She still smokes weed heavily, still has her moments where she flips out for no reason, is still struggling overall, but you can tell she's trying at least. And it hurts. It hurts she didn't start to try until i gave up on having a relationship with her, that she had to wait until i reached my absolute limit and had one of the most terrible (if not THE most terrible) emotional breakdown of my entire life. I know we sometimes have to reach rock bottom to start climbing up, but that was my rock bottom, not hers. She never cared about how i felt, she still doesn't and it's obvious on how she acts and talks to me/about me. I do believe losing my support affected her, since i'm the only person who has never left her alone when in need, but i just wish it didn't have to get to this point.

I wish her the best, i wish she keeps consistent and improving, but i don't think i can get over this. I don't know if she's doing it in hopes of repairing the relationship or just because she got tired of being miserable, but i hope is the latest. I hope she gets to a point where she is happy with her life and herself, just not with me in her life.