CPTSD and Limerence
Any one else experience this? I recently blocked a guy I was SUPPPERRR into. I mean I was obsessing over him to the point of insanity on days we didn’t talk as much. It would make me spiral and trigger TF out of me. I’m talking full breakdowns and urges to block him.
I didn’t block because there was a time where I kept blocking him and unblocking him. He knew 😭 but he was as understanding as he could be. Naturally he pulled away. But when I had left him unlocked for an entire month I guess he took that as a green flag and we started talking again. I ended up obsessing once more. I told him how I was feeling, his response was “it’s okay to become attached and have feelings.” Like yes! With normal people! Then I begged him to block me. He didn’t block me because he didn’t think it was actually what I wanted.
24 hours later, after losing my mind over this man, I blocked him. At first that triggered a massive breakdown, but now 2 days later I am feeling GREAT lol 😭 after looking up why I get like this, apparently CPTSD and limerence is incredibly common!!
I still think he’s the most perfect thing to ever exist, and I don’t think I will ever meet someone as good as him again. But unfortunately, my mental health is too fucked to be normal when I really like someone 😂