u/brookekp86

Hi everyone! I am currently stuck awake and consumed with the same thoughts on repeat the last few weeks.

Over the past 2 years I have lost a significant amount of weight, I went from 330 to about 220.

In January I had a huge life change and ended up moving across the country with my husband and I had gained at least 15-20lbs back. That really didn’t bother me much because I knew I was going through a lot of life changes and things would settle again.

However, finding out I was pregnant has sent me into a spiral. I spend every day just looking at my body, noticing the weight gain and feeling more and more depressed. I feel like I can’t control my eating.

Even though I’m nauseous AF I still eat. And I’m exhausted ALL the time, so I know I’m not exercising enough.

I know I haven’t done anything directly to put my baby at risk, but I’m really mentally struggling and being extremely hard on myself. All I want is to enjoy the process and I know my body is bloating and going through so many changes. I don’t know how much of these feelings are from my hormones.

I barely want to leave the house because I’m so scared of people seeing me and judging me for my weight gain. The last time I was weighed I was 240 so I know I haven’t gained too much, at most 250. I just look in the mirror and am SO ashamed.

I just need support and nobody in my life can really understand this right now.

Hi everyone!

I (f24) am currently pregnant with my first child, a baby girl!! I am so beyond excited, but also terrified because I know at least one of my future children with get stuck with this :(

Formally, I’ve been kind of diagnosed. Pretty much every doctor I have seen has been baffled, all my blood tests come back perfectly normal, my hormones are in order and we can’t really figure out what the root cause of my hair loss is.

HOWEVER, both my mom and grandma have thinning hair (my grandma more noticeable than my mom because my mom’s is curly). And mine has been thinning since puberty, with all the typical distinctions of AA, slowly thinning down the middle part.

If the pattern continues, there’s a likely chance my daughter will end up with this too.

Growing up, my mom LOVED to point it out and make it a huge insecurity for me instead of helping me tackle it. Which makes me so upset because I feel like it’s something she should have taken the initiative for when I was 11-12y/o with thinning hair instead of making me hate myself.

I want to avoid this issue going forward but I don’t know what to do if I start seeing signs in my baby, especially if we could never find the root cause from my hormones. I know rosemary is good. And I don’t want to put her on minoxidil/spironolactone, especially before or during puberty.

Any help or advice is gratefully appreciated!!! I know this is a long time away issue but even if it means starting a simple and safe hair care routine young, that would make the biggest difference :)