I dont know if I love my gf anymore
I (26f) have been with my (22f) girlfriend for almost 5 months now, I was so in love with her in the beginning but now I get so irritable being around her. I dont know when it first started but we've been together almost 24/7 now. Pretty much any time were not at work we are together. I tried to tell her that she should spend more time with her friends that she lives with but she just doesnt want to leave my apartment.
All she wants to do all day every day is cuddle. And I don't mean one arm around each other but laying on top of me. Not only is it uncomfortable but its annoying because I want to do my own thing. I told her this but it seriously personally offends her.
I love her and everything about us is perfect on paper. But I dont feel a spark anymore. Maybe its the age gap and the fact that I've never dated anyone younger. She is super naive, grew up really sheltered. Im the opposite. Ive been on my own since 16 and while I do still visit my friends and family im almost always by myself. I have an extroverted personality and can get along with almost anyone. Shes super introverted and I thought maybe it was an opposites attract kinda thing because I've never had an extroverted partner but idk anymore.
I also feel terrible because shes clearly head over heels in love with me and im her first everything. I just feel like we rushed into this and now its too late to back out. I also truly adore her and she's the sweetest person ever but I cant help but be so annoyed of her sometimes because shes so clingy. I think that its best if we spent more time apart but I dont want to hurt her feelings. I vocalized this once the other night and she just cried while laying next to me and didnt talk much after that even when I tried to have a conversation.
I dont really know what to do. I dont want to break up because I really felt like everything was going so perfectly and shes helped me so much and I dont want her to feel like I just used her. Idk. I havent told any of my friends and I feel like everyone thinks were just so perfect for each other and its truly one of the best relationships I've ever had so that only makes this more confusing for me. I think I relate a bit to bpd splitting as well but I dont have health insurance or a dr/therapist/psychiatrist so thats just speculation I've come up with after some internet research. I dont really know what advice im looking for but it feels good to finally type this out.