Teaching my least favorite topic
I have been teaching bio for 3 years. I love it. When I interviewed for this job they said a possible bio and forensic teacher which I was super excited about. I was currently a building sub for family reasons but wanted to keep teaching. They turned me down...I was scared I wasn't going to have a job come fall ans they offered me Chem and earth science teaching position. I needed a job so I said yes.
Its my first day on site and im panicking. I hate Chem, I hate earth science. Now I have to teach both, it will be like im a new teacher again, but with stuff im not excited about. I have to teach a state exam on these topics. I cant do a crappy job, but these subjects are actively my least favorite science.
Im the breadwinner in the family so I needed a job for us to survive. My 5 year plan is to go to med school so I figured this job allowed me to review for Chem. But......im activity freaking out that I chose wrong.
Idk I need help or words or some words of encouragement.
Edit: I feel some people are getting caught up on the disliking aspect. I need some perspective on teaching two new topics that im not familiar with at the same time too...like my background is in human biology, I have never taken an earth science class and...chem ain't my strongest subject. I appreciate those telling me to try to find the joy and to be 1 day ahead...but that sounds like ima be a year one teacher staying up late and coming in on the weekends..
Edit 2: I think its also important to mention that I work in an area with 90 percent of the kids are low income and are disadvantaged. The parents in this city actively see no point in education besides babysitting. The kids i have to teach get bought in to do well/ try in the class by the teacher. And so my super power ha been to make kids care because I care so deeply and love it so deeply. Ans because my background is in Bio Archeology, I have so many fun facts about things they get bought in to the fact that im knowledgeable and worth doing the work for. And here thats important. So I guess the purpose of this post was to get some advice on teaching two new subjects i dont enjoy....not...telling me how wonderful they are....im an adult, I know what earth science is...i just dont care about it.
Edit 3:
Thank you to everyone with kind words, I didnt expect so many responses . I have realized the thing ill hold onto in this class is review of material for me and the experiments for the kids. I feel the experiments in chem, while not second nature to me, will be very engaging once I learn the science behind them.