u/burner123451991

Not sure if its anxiety/stress or perimenopause or some 3rd option I havent even thought of, but my insomnia is going to make me absolutely lose it. I've had random bought of insomnia but the last 3 days ive barely slept. Can't seem to regulate my body temp well. Rooms at 63, fan on, light clothes and just a sheet to sleep with. I get comfy, im usually a little chilly, then literally as im falling asleep I get a hot flash or that jerk thing happens.

Im at my wits end. I've cried everyday just because im so tired and honestly this year has just been a series of unfortunate events so im stressed for sure but I dont get whats different now than last month or even last week.

I've done every google-able remedy in the book. I go to my PCP in the am so I guess ill see what they say but man this is so depressing and its so lonely to be the only one awake

I feel like im having a mid like crisis or something. Long story short, my (34f) entire adult life has just been a series of trying to get ahead and just being in the same place. Bills are paid, theres a little food in the fridge but like everyone else im paycheck to paycheck, nothing to save for emergencies let alone a vacation. Everything is getting worse economically and I just keep feeling like this never ends. I have 40 more years of this before I can retire..if I can retire. I know everything could change, in 5 years my life could be completely different but I feel like I've just wasted so much of my life just trying to survive ill never get far enough ahead to actually live.

Venting really I guess, can't really afford mental health help lol but if there's anyone willing to give some free advice ill take it