u/burnerb49

I lived in hell with a drug addict mother and drug addict older sister in a dilapidated trailer. When i was finally able to leave, I had never known such peace. The sense of relief was consuming.
If you are living with an addict family. Please focus on yourself. Go to school, go to work, meditate. Be physically away from it as much as possible (NOT at parties). Use them as an example to NEVER do what they do (i know to this day to never try coke cuz I’m sure I would love it). Work on yourself, be proud of yourself for not being an addict. Fantasize about getting away from it. Get a job that can get you away and do that. Get away as fast as you can.

I paid for about 1/4 of my college edu with fafsa cuz my parents were food stamp poor. As soon as I got my nursing degree, I dipped out. I’ve never felt such peace. It will still haunt you, but it’s not your entire life.

My mom had a debilitating stroke a year ago. Bed bound with difficulty talking. She keeps saying that she hates her life and wishes she was dead. If she had the capability to kill herself she would. Before she had the stroke she was a drug addict (crack and heroin). Last few months before her stroke she said she was ready to die and just didn’t give a fuck. She said she wanted to be with her (dead) son and parents. She’s in a shitty medicaid nursing home now. I try to make her life better (taking her out a lot, buying her whatever she wants). I wish she could just do all the drugs she wanted and die. She was expecting to die, not become severely disabled.

She had a debilitating stroke a year ago. Bed bound with difficulty talking. She keeps saying that she hates her life and wishes she was dead. If she had the capability to kill herself she would. Before she had the stroke she was a drug addict. Last few months before her stroke she said she was ready to die and just didn’t give a fuck. She said she wanted to be with her (dead) son and parents. She’s in a shitty medicaid nursing home now. I try to make her life better (taking her out a lot, buying her whatever she wants). I wish she could just do all the drugs she wanted and die. She was expecting to die, not become severely disabled.