u/burnoutfailure12

Hi! I am 29F. I am a nontraditional student who spent the last 6 years as a float patient care technician at an hospital. I am happy to have this opportunity to go to medical school and become a doctor. Lately, I have been really anxious for the start of the school year. Through studying for the MCAT, I have lost many of my college friends and am now completely friendless. Furthermore, I am still single at 29 and have never had a real relationship. I am moving away from my family as the school is located on the East Coast. I don’t make friends very easy and I am worried that I am going to have the same issues in medical school. I am worried that I will still be single throughout medical school. I feel so inferior to my classmates because they are much younger and smarter than me. I don’t know what to do? I’m just scared of the future.

I don’t know if anyone else has went through this but I will explain myself. I am 29F and am heading towards medical school . For the first week, my school has a lot of social activities geared towards having the students get to know each other more. As I approach medical school, I have found myself not wanting people to know anything about me. I deal with PTSD, bipolar disorder II, ADHD, and Asperger’s syndrome. Furthermore, I am single and have had a lot of trauma with friends and men in the past. Anywho, I feel a sense of distrust towards my classmates as most of them are much younger and smarter than me and are in stable relationships. I have even changed my names because I felt that they did not deserve to even know my true name. I just feel that with being neurodivergent with a lot of trauma, if I spoke about myself, then people will notice that something is off with me and will avoid me. I just am tired of getting hurt and feeling like I am not good enough. I just honestly want to finish medical school and call it a day. The less they know about me, the better