hiiii ive been diving and experimenting or exploring more sa mga music taste or genres na papatok sakin and i discovered Raimund Marasigan's Sandwich and Pedicab. does anyone here listen to it? maybe we can vibe?
hi, looking for Filipino friends to be friends with! i've been pretty bored, and watching on YT nor listening to YT music is JUST ARGHHHHH. i don't want dry texting or dry people, i want ppl who r really interested!
thank you :)
Problem/Goal: How do I stop overthinking and stop self-sabotaging my relationship?
Context: I met someone here on Reddit, last January. We clicked, he told me to come over, and now we're already gf/bf. My boyfriend is a businessman, and not just that, he has a lot of jobs and most of the time, he has big clients, and he handles life coaching.
Unfortunately, there are times that we don't get to talk for a day, but I always know the answer and I know it's always the only thing he does: WORK.
My boyfriend also has ADHD, and particularly whenever I say to him na if you really want to ignore me then just tell me, he has this ugali na he won't care about anything at all, not talking to any people even his family members if ever he's in a big partnership or is handling a big client. He's overly focused in his work or in everything he does and won't care about anything that's not pertaining to the client. He has big clients, as a reminder. Sometimes, he won't message for a day, but he makes sure na hindi tatagal ng dalawang araw bago siya mag-reply. He's engaged in what I'd message just like me sharing the movies I watched, he even asked me to make a movie report about it, basta there's nothing suspicious about him at all, he still cares, I know.
Ngl, I love my boyfriend so much and I really want to understand him. I truly trust him and I know he's worthy of it. But sometimes, I self-sabotage myself na maybe it's like this, maybe he's just covering things up or what, lagi ako naghahanap ng butas, I'm like a rabbit digging deeper into a rabbit hole na wala namang laman at all. Lagi kong hinahanapan ng problema yung pagsasama namin, when in fact, in the first place I wanted this kind of relationship. Ang lakas ko mag-overthink, when in fact, the universe keeps showing me signs na it's not necessary to overthink or to be suspicious to my bf. Sometimes, whenever iwinawakli ko siya sa utak ko, or even forgetting him at all, or kahit hindi ko man sadyain, it'll always leave a tear in my eye kapag nakita ko yung bagay that's relevant about him. Hearing or seeing his name sa street on a place I haven't been too, seeing my initial and his initial on the tag of my short na I never get to notice for years that I've been wearing it. I don't know. I just wanna know, how do I stop self-sabotaging things or the relationship itself? Kasi, to be honest, if wala lang yung self-sabotaging part, the relationship is so peaceful, and nobody wants a messy relationship, right? I just want people's pieces of advice to work on it kasi it's killing me, and I don't want it to affect the relationship even more. I love this guy and he's not doing anything bad to me at all.
Previous Attempts: I talked to him about what's bothering me, and as usual, he'd say na it's been him talaga, he admitted na pangit na ugali niya 'yon, but he's working on it, but I just want to learn how to properly accept it.
I hope it's not messy at all, and sana may sumagot or someone would leave a piece of advice. :( I don't wanna ruin things just like how I ruined once before. I don't want to feel na my boyfriend is the worst person in my life, when in fact kahit sobrang busy na siya at wala siyang time sa sarili niya, he'd update me pa rin kapag may pasaglit na oras.