u/can_we_just_not_yeah

I long to hear his words

To know his pen touched

Parts of my soul,deeper

Then any half bound

Light clouded

'Hey u up'

At 3am Text

'U horny bitch'

'When u meeting'

next?'

To know his mind

Brought to life

Those traces of me

Whatever they maybe

If it's tails of my insufferable

Nature, constant doubt

Self driven cycle of implosion

or my tendency to

bite...

Or

when out of sight.

I slowly Break, the grief

the baggage

Weighing down my wings

In the dark, the cracks

Of the dream give way to

Cold hard glass

Shattered, reality

Strikes,

matches in hand.

You see me

My self

And

My shadow.

Rest when the tide tells me to fight

That whipped up flux against the walls.

Giving into the flow of things

not struggling to stay afloat

But having faith

the tide will carry

Me to where

I need to be.

Welcome to the freeze response

Where the world flies by at 10,000 miles

And an hour feels like 10,000 days.

This is where the movement comes to die

Where I cannot hold up the air around me

Nothing grows except the moss on my cheeks

The ground beneath hopefully but very slowly

Gives way to the roots

I fear

I've been here too long...