I might have accidentally killed myself and am in my own personal hell
About 5 years ago, I was holding my rifle and I pulled the trigger, intending only to dry fire it. I had forgotten that I had left it loaded the night before. Stupid, I know. The rifle went off with a deafening roar. It wasn't pointed at me, but I could also never find a bullet hole anywhere.
My life since has felt like I am in my own personal hell. I wonder if the rifle was pointed at my head and I just remember it incorrectly. Maybe I died and went to hell?