How to stay clean?
Hi, so I’m 2,5 months clean atm and I intend to keep it that way BUT I think about it every single day I want to sh so badly and knowing myself and my borderline impulsivity I’ll snap any day so how do I.. not?
I’m going through a rough and toxic as situationship and it makes me want to Frankenstein myself all over again honestly the only thing stopping me right now is the fact that I promised myself I would never cut myself because of this man ever again and even though it’s just a promise made in my head it would go against my own morals to break that promise. The thing is now I’m just looking for excuses to sh that’s not because of that relationship so that I can blame it on something else instead. What do I do? I been doing this sh shit since I was 12 , I’m 21 now idk how to cope without seeing my damn blood and I don’t feel satisfied until I sit with stitches that will ruin my summer. At least people can understand it when I drink and shit but no one understands how addictive sh really is.
This turned into a rant honestly.