Seeing baby daddy with a wedding ring made me realize how lonely I am
I just wanted to share on here that I saw baby daddy wearing a gold ring on his left ring finger—he was visiting our son at the time. I didn't say anything; I just left the room and tried to play it off. It was strange to see him with a ring because his religion doesn't care for couples to wear them, although he has been somewhat excommunicated(?) from his church because of his cheating and us having a child while we were unmarried.
But anyway, it's been giving me bad anxiety lately, maybe also because I'm about to get my period so my hormones are all over the place. Some part of me is thinking (or maybe even relieved), "if he's married, at least it's not the girl he cheated on me with."
He's always been cautious and secretive with me about many aspects of his life—most especially his love life, and I couldn't care less nowadays honestly. He recently opened up about seeing someone else, to which I responded that I didn't care. In truth, I didn't need the update because I absolutely don't like him anymore and I've already moved on. I even told him we're not friends who talk about our personal lives—we're just co-parenting our son.
Basically, I'm not jealous of the girl/wife he's with, but it made me think about my own future and whether I will ever find someone for me as well. It just made me feel very lonely. I've thought about dating, but I just don't have the time. Heck, I don't even have time for myself, let alone to date other people—and there's always that scare factor of meeting someone and having them destroy the peace of mind I've already built for myself. But it does get really lonely. I don't get to meet up with IRL friends as much as I want to (even if I invite them) since they're busy with their own life and stuff, which adds to the loneliness.
Anyway, I just wanted to post this somewhere—letting it all out. I don't really have anyone I can talk to about this, so I'm hoping this will help me process the things that are happening. This too shall pass. Thanks to whoever is reading this.
P.S. If you have been in a similar situation, do you have any words of advice or encouragement that you can share? Thanks in advance.