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My name is (redacted), and I’m killing myself at an unmarked location so as not to spread my mold further into another host. I know the horrors of my disease, and this is my last communication to the world. This post is only a documentation of my death.

Every time I wake up, I feel the flesh inside me crawl with mold, mold that spreds its seeds and eggs into my flesh giving its children an alive food source. The mold is spreading from within me to my vocal cords. I can no longer scream or talk of my own will. The mold is keeping me alive, only using my body to puppet its reproduction cycle like a source of food.

The mold is spreading its broken seeds through my inner organs. Every time I visit the toilet, strands of bile, mixed with parts of my broken intestines and the goup of maggots and seed infested mold, come out.

The mold is cutting out parts of my tendons, replacing them with more mold and living maggots. I was making food the other day when I cut my finger the finger got cut down to the bone but there was no blood the wound was only filled with black goup of what i only know is the horrors of the mold.

I know now that I am only a mere vessel for the mold. The doctors do not know what is happening to me. They have no answers, but they say my vitals are fine even though they look like cheese huge holes show up on there monitors but the holes are not empty the holes are filled with “unknown supstance” I know I am not fine. The mold is replacing my insides. Now I am more mold than human.

Last night, I spit up parts of my tongue. My tongue still moved; the mold had taken it over. My teeth and hair have started falling out to my eyes becoming goopy as the flesh hangs lower than it should.

I’m writing this now to get this out to the world and tell them of my sickness, one that no one wants to know exists. I don’t know how it spreads, but I know it has started taking me from the inside to the outside. My skin is starting to flake off, and under the skin my blacked maggots infested  flesh have started being revealed, but still the mold is keeping me alive.

Now I am going to burn myself, drink gasoline, and pour it all over my insides and outsides, because I know that even if the smallest part of my mold survived, it would just find a new host for its reproduction. Because I know it still needs to survive the maggots are only a part of the molds cycle it starts as mold the mold birthes maggots who then eat my flesh before transforming into a horror I don’t want to know or think about. But I need to go now so I’ll say one last thing, bye internet.

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My name is (redacted), and I’m killing myself at an unmarked location so as not to spread my mold further into another host. I know the horrors of my disease, and this is my last communication to the world. This post is only a documentation of my death.

Every time I wake up, I feel the flesh inside me crawl with mold, mold that spreds its seeds and eggs into my flesh giving its children an alive food source. The mold is spreading from within me to my vocal cords. I can no longer scream or talk of my own will. The mold is keeping me alive, only using my body to puppet its reproduction cycle like a source of food.

The mold is spreading its broken seeds through my inner organs. Every time I visit the toilet, strands of bile, mixed with parts of my broken intestines and the goup of maggots and seed infested mold, come out.

The mold is cutting out parts of my tendons, replacing them with more mold and living maggots. I was making food the other day when I cut my finger the finger got cut down to the bone but there was no blood the wound was only filled with black goup of what i only know is the horrors of the mold.

I know now that I am only a mere vessel for the mold. The doctors do not know what is happening to me. They have no answers, but they say my vitals are fine even though they look like cheese huge holes show up on there monitors but the holes are not empty the holes are filled with “unknown supstance” I know I am not fine. The mold is replacing my insides. Now I am more mold than human.

Last night, I spit up parts of my tongue. My tongue still moved; the mold had taken it over. My teeth and hair have started falling out to my eyes becoming goopy as the flesh hangs lower than it should.

I’m writing this now to get this out to the world and tell them of my sickness, one that no one wants to know exists. I don’t know how it spreads, but I know it has started taking me from the inside to the outside. My skin is starting to flake off, and under the skin my blacked maggots infested  flesh have started being revealed, but still the mold is keeping me alive.

Now I am going to burn myself, drink gasoline, and pour it all over my insides and outsides, because I know that even if the smallest part of my mold survived, it would just find a new host for its reproduction. Because I know it still needs to survive the maggots are only a part of the molds cycle it starts as mold the mold birthes maggots who then eat my flesh before transforming into a horror I don’t want to know and I don’t want to answer so I’ll say my prayers and, bye internet

My name is (redacted), and I’m killing myself at an unmarked location so as not to spread my mold further into another host. I know the horrors of my disease, and this is my last communication to the world. This post is only a documentation of my death.

Every time I wake up, I feel the flesh inside me crawl with mold, mold that spreds its seeds and eggs into my flesh giving its children an alive food source. The mold is spreading from within me to my vocal cords. I can no longer scream or talk of my own will. The mold is keeping me alive, only using my body to puppet its reproduction cycle like a source of food.

The mold is spreading its broken seeds through my inner organs. Every time I visit the toilet, strands of bile, mixed with parts of my broken intestines and the goup of maggots and seed infested mold, come out.

The mold is cutting out parts of my tendons, replacing them with more mold and living maggots. I was making food the other day when I cut my finger the finger got cut down to the bone but there was no blood the wound was only filled with black goup of what i only know is the horrors of the mold.

I know now that I am only a mere vessel for the mold. The doctors do not know what is happening to me. They have no answers, but they say my vitals are fine even though they look like cheese huge holes show up on there monitors but the holes are not empty the holes are filled with “unknown supstance” I know I am not fine. The mold is replacing my insides. Now I am more mold than human.

Last night, I spit up parts of my tongue. My tongue still moved; the mold had taken it over. My teeth and hair have started falling out to my eyes becoming goopy as the flesh hangs lower than it should.

I’m writing this now to get this out to the world and tell them of my sickness, one that no one wants to know exists. I don’t know how it spreads, but I know it has started taking me from the inside to the outside. My skin is starting to flake off, and under the skin my blacked maggots infested  flesh have started being revealed, but still the mold is keeping me alive.

Now I am going to burn myself, drink gasoline, and pour it all over my insides and outsides, because I know that even if the smallest part of my mold survived, it would just find a new host for its reproduction. Because I know it still needs to survive the maggots are only a part of the molds cycle it starts as mold the mold birthes maggots who then eat my flesh before transforming into a horror I don’t want to know or think about. But I need to go now so I’ll say one last thing, bye internet.

My name is (redacted), and I’m killing myself at an unmarked location so as not to spread my mold further into another host. I know the horrors of my disease, and this is my last communication to the world. This post is only a documentation of my death.

Every time I wake up, I feel the flesh inside me crawl with mold. The mold is spreading from within me to my vocal cords. I can no longer scream or talk of my own will. The mold is keeping me alive, only using my body to puppet its reproduction cycle like a source of food.

The mold is spreading its broken seeds through my inner organs. Every time I visit the toilet, strands of bile, mixed with parts of my broken intestines and the mold, come out.

The mold is cutting out parts of my tendons, replacing them with more mold. My left eye started to become useless, only being filled with mold, so I decided to stab it out. But from the stab wound there came no blood—only vile seeds and mold.

I know now that I am only a mere vessel for the mold. The doctors do not know what is happening to me. They have no answers, but they say my vitals are fine. I know I am not fine. The mold is replacing my insides. Now I am more mold than human.

Last night, I spit up parts of my tongue. My tongue still moved; the mold had taken it over.

I’m writing this now to get this out to the world and tell them of my sickness, one that no one wants to know exists. I don’t know how it spreads, but I know it has started taking me from the inside to the outside. My skin is starting to flake off, and maggots have infested my flesh, but still the mold is keeping me alive.

Now I am going to burn myself, drink gasoline, and pour it all over my insides and outsides, because I know that even if the smallest part of my mold survived, it would just find a new host for its reproduction. Because I know it still needs to

My name is (redacted), and I’m killing myself at an unmarked location so as not to spread my mold further into another host. I know the horrors of my disease, and this is my last communication to the world. This post is only a documentation of my death.

Every time I wake up, I feel the flesh inside me crawl with mold. The mold is spreading from within me to my vocal cords. I can no longer scream or talk of my own will. The mold is keeping me alive, only using my body to puppet its reproduction cycle like a source of food.

The mold is spreading its broken seeds through my inner organs. Every time I visit the toilet, strands of bile, mixed with parts of my broken intestines and the mold, come out.

The mold is cutting out parts of my tendons, replacing them with more mold. My left eye started to become useless, only being filled with mold, so I decided to stab it out. But from the stab wound there came no blood—only vile seeds and mold.

I know now that I am only a mere vessel for the mold. The doctors do not know what is happening to me. They have no answers, but they say my vitals are fine. I know I am not fine. The mold is replacing my insides. Now I am more mold than human.

Last night, I spit up parts of my tongue. My tongue still moved; the mold had taken it over.

I’m writing this now to get this out to the world and tell them of my sickness, one that no one wants to know exists. I don’t know how it spreads, but I know it has started taking me from the inside to the outside. My skin is starting to flake off, and maggots have infested my flesh, but still the mold is keeping me alive.

Now I am going to burn myself, drink gasoline, and pour it all over my insides and outsides, because I know that even if the smallest part of my mold survived, it would just find a new host for its reproduction. Because I know it still needs to

My name is (redacted), and I’m killing myself at an unmarked location so as not to spread my mold further into another host. I know the horrors of my disease, and this is my last communication to the world. This post is only a documentation of my death.

Every time I wake up, I feel the flesh inside me crawl with mold. The mold is spreading from within me to my vocal cords. I can no longer scream or talk of my own will. The mold is keeping me alive, only using my body to puppet its reproduction cycle like a source of food.

The mold is spreading its broken seeds through my inner organs. Every time I visit the toilet, strands of bile, mixed with parts of my broken intestines and the mold, come out.

The mold is cutting out parts of my tendons, replacing them with more mold. My left eye started to become useless, only being filled with mold, so I decided to stab it out. But from the stab wound there came no blood—only vile seeds and mold.

I know now that I am only a mere vessel for the mold. The doctors do not know what is happening to me. They have no answers, but they say my vitals are fine. I know I am not fine. The mold is replacing my insides. Now I am more mold than human.

Last night, I spit up parts of my tongue. My tongue still moved; the mold had taken it over.

I’m writing this now to get this out to the world and tell them of my sickness, one that no one wants to know exists. I don’t know how it spreads, but I know it has started taking me from the inside to the outside. My skin is starting to flake off, and maggots have infested my flesh, but still the mold is keeping me alive.

Now I am going to burn myself, drink gasoline, and pour it all over my insides and outsides, because I know that even if the smallest part of my mold survived, it would just find a new host for its reproduction. Because I know it still needs to

Thanks for all the support on the orginal story this is a rewritten extended version of it so enjoy!

This isn't just a story I'm telling you. It’s a memory that’s stuck with me, like a giant scar, ever since I was eight. It's a memory that just doesn't quite line up the way normal memories should. For the longest time I just believed it was child imagination. I'm telling you all this now, years later, because I'm finally realizing that at least a few parts of it are true. 

When I was eight, strange things started happening at night. I would fall asleep in my own bed, tucked in under the blue comforter and then I'd wake up somewhere completely different. Sometimes I'd open my eyes on the living room couch, the cushions cold and sunken beneath me, like I’d been lying there for hours. Other times I found myself curled up on the hard wooden floor in the hallway, like a forgotten rag doll someone had dropped. Once, I even woke up sitting upright right beside the front door, my back against the wall, arms wrapped around my knees, with my forehead pressed against the cool metal of the lock, like I'd been waiting for someone to come in.

Every morning, my mom would find me in one of these spots, and she'd just laugh it off with her tired but loving smile. "You've always been a sleepwalker, sweetheart. Nothing to worry about. Some kids just have active minds, that's all." She'd ruffle my hair, make me pancakes with too much syrup, and quickly change the subject. I was too young to even think about why the sleepwalking had only started after we moved into that old, run-down apartment building on the edge of town. Why I never remembered walking around. Why, some mornings, I'd wake up with bruises on my legs or scratches on my arms.

The apartment building itself always just felt... off. At night, the walls seemed to settle, making sounds almost like sighs, or even breathing. The lights in the hallway would flicker even when nobody was walking past. Miss Herrett, the old lady who lived two doors down, always used to say the building was "full of old stories." She'd invite me over after school when Mom was working late, give me those hard strawberry candies that always got stuck in my teeth, and let me watch cartoons on her really old TV while she slept in her chair. She sometimes towards the end started calling me by her dead son's name but still I really liked her. Back then, I honestly thought she was the safest person around.

Then came the big move.

Mom had worked double shifts for years, saving every penny she could, until she finally had enough for a down payment on a real house. A proper two-story home with white siding, a wide front porch, and a backyard that stretched right up to the edge of a thick, really old forest. The first few weeks there felt like a dream. The air smelled cleaner. The rooms were bright and airy. And the strange nighttime wanderings stopped completely. Mom made a big deal of locking every door and window each night, double-checking them before she kissed me goodnight. "See? New house, new rules. You're safe here, Joshua." Mom got so comfortable she started forgetting to lock the doors she said it was fine we lived basically in the woods afterall.

For a while, I believed her. 
Until the scar that I still remember formed itself.
It was a Thursday in late October. One of those autumn nights where the wind carries the smell of dying leaves and distant rain. I had gone to bed early, totally worn out from a day of exploring the woods with a stick I pretended was a sword. I remember falling asleep to the soft glow of my spaceship-shaped nightlight.

I woke up to a sound at my bedroom window, which was on the second floor.

Three slow, deliberate knocks. Then silence. Then three more.

It wasn't just a branch scraping against the glass. Branches usually move all over the place, totally random. No, this was careful. It was patient. It was on purpose. The pauses between the sets of knocks felt calculated, like whatever was out there knew I was listening and wanted to give me time to get really scared. 

Underneath the knocking, almost hidden by it, came something else. A low, wet, rasping sound—like something heavy and damp being dragged slowly across dry leaves. And then, threading through it all, a voice.

It said my name.

"Joshua…"

It wasn't a whisper. It was spoken clearly, calmly, just like a grown-up you trust would talk to a kid they've known forever. The way someone who has watched you grow up, who has studied every detail of your life, finally decides the time has come to make contact. It tried to sound familiar, almost comforting, but there was something underneath it—something gurgling and wrong, like steel that had rusted from staying under water too long.

I pulled the blanket over my head, my heart hammering so hard I was sure it would burst. I lay there trembling, just listening. Footsteps moved outside in the yard below—soft, careful steps, testing the ground so no twig would snap too loudly. But the footsteps weren't only outside. After a while I couldn't tell if they were in the yard, inside the walls, or inside my own head. The difference stopped mattering. Everything felt invaded.

I must have eventually passed out from pure terror, because the next thing I remember is waking up deep in the forest.

The change was seamless and terrifying. One moment I was in my bed. Next I was standing barefoot among the trees. The ground was cold and damp, soaked with night dew that seeped between my toes. The pajamas I wore weren’t mine. They were way too big—sleeves hanging well past my hands, pants bunched and dragging around my ankles. They smelled like home, like Miss Hagrett's hard strawberry candy.

In the left pocket of the oversized pajama shirt, my fingers found something stiff and rectangular. A small stack of photographs.

I pulled them out with shaking hands and held them up toward the thin moonlight that managed to pierce the tree canopy.

They were pictures of me.

But not all of them made sense.

The first few showed me as a toddler in a yard I didn’t recognize, laughing while a man, whose face was turned away from the camera, pushed me on a swing. Another showed me riding my new bike in front of our house—taken from across the street on the very first day we moved in. I remembered that day clearly. I had been alone in the front yard. Or so I remembered it.

Then came the ones taken from inside my room. Me sleeping in my bed, mouth slightly open, blanket kicked down to my waist. The angle was from the corner near my closet. There was no one in our house who could have taken that photo.

The last images were the ones that truly broke something inside me.

They showed me at ages I hadn’t reached yet.

Me at ten years old, standing in a school hallway I didn’t recognize, looking over my shoulder with wide, frightened eyes. Me at thirteen, sitting on a porch step at dusk with tears on my cheeks. And the final one—me as an adult, maybe in my late twenties, standing in the doorway of a house I had never seen before. I was looking back over my shoulder directly at the camera with an expression of pure animal terror.

All the photos were in vivid, expensive-looking color. My mom had never owned a color printer. She still doesn’t. The ink cartridges alone would have cost more than our weekly groceries back then.

I started walking because standing still felt like inviting whatever was out there to come closer. The trees all looked identical. No matter which direction I chose, the path curved gently back on itself. It felt like I was walking on a tiny planet or a globe.
After what felt like hours of stumbling through the dark—branches snagging at my oversized sleeves, roots grabbing at my bare feet—I heard the soft sound of running water. A narrow creek cut through the forest floor, the first new thing. And on the other side stood a figure.

It was Miss Herrett.

She looked exactly as I remembered her from the apartment days. The same floral housecoat, the same gentle smile, the same little mole on her left cheek. She waved me over with fingers that seemed just a fraction too long, as if someone had tried to stretch human skin over a different frame.

“Come on, sweetheart,” she called, her voice warm but carrying an undertone like wet gravel. “You’ll be safe if you cross the water. Just come to me. I’ve been waiting.”

I stopped at the edge of the creek. Something felt violently wrong. Her smile was right, but her eyes didn’t move. They didn’t blink. They stayed fixed on me like painted glass.

“I can’t swim,” I whispered, even though the creek looked shallow.

“It’s not deep,” she said, still smiling. “Just a few steps. I have a gift for you, Joshua. Something very special.”

I took one hesitant step forward, my bare foot touching the cold water.

Then I stepped back.

“Don’t walk away, Joshua,” she said, and her voice changed. It dropped, became deeper, rougher, warmer. It became the voice I had only ever heard in old home videos. My father’s voice.

“I’m here for you. I’ve always been here.”

He told me how much he had missed me. How he had been watching over me since before I was born. He spoke of futures that hadn’t happened yet and pasts that had been rewritten. Miss Herrett’s skin began to peel slowly at the edges—first around the jaw, then the cheeks—like wet paper coming loose. Underneath, there was another face. My dad's face. But it looked all wrong. Stretched out. Old. Like it had been dead for ages, but someone had tried really hard to keep it, clean it up, and make it look like it could be worn again.

I wanted to scream but my throat had closed.

Then came the sound of frantic running through the brush behind me. Warm arms wrapped around me so suddenly I almost collapsed. It was my mother. She was crying. I was crying. She scooped me up even though I was getting too heavy for her and carried me all the way home through the dark woods.

She never really believed me when I tried to tell her everything that happened. Not deep down, anyway. She just said it was a nightmare, that I must have sleepwalked again, that the pictures were probably something I'd drawn or just made up in my head. Eventually, I just gave up trying to make her understand. I kept it all locked away deep inside me.

But I’m telling you now because last night I woke up to the same three measured knocks at my window and the whispering from my mother calling my name.
The thing is… my mother passed away a week ago.

This isn’t just a story. It’s a memory I’ve carried since I was eight years old, one that’s never fit together the way memories should. The edges are too sharp in some places, too blurred in others. I’m sharing it now because I’m starting to understand that it was never random. None of it.
When I was eight, I would sometimes wake up in a different part of the house than where I’d fallen asleep. My bed would be empty, sheets already cold, and I’d find myself on the couch, or curled on the hallway floor like a discarded doll, or once even sitting upright at the side of the locket door like i've tried to get outside or with my head resting on my arms as if I’d been waiting for someone. My mom would laugh it off and call it sleepwalking. “You’ve always done that, sweetheart. Nothing to worry about.”
I was too young to question why it only started after we moved into the old apartment, or why I never remembered the walk. Or why some mornings I tasted metal in my mouth and found dirt under my fingernails or scratches from a bush.
Then my mom finally scraped together enough money for a fresh start: a real house, two stories, with a yard that backed right up against the woods. For the first few weeks everything felt clean and safe. The strange nights stopped. Mom always remembered to lock the doors and everything felt safe.
Until it didn’t.
One night I woke to a sound at my bedroom window on the second floor. A slow, deliberate knocking—three measured taps, then silence, then three more. Not like a branch scraping in the wind. Not like an animal. Too patient. Too familiar. And underneath the knocks, threading through them like something wet being dragged across dry leaves, came a voice. Rasping, low, almost gurgling. It said my name. Not whispered. Spoken clearly, the way an adult speaks to a child they know well. The way someone who has watched you for years speaks when they finally decide it’s time. It sounded like it was trying to sound like someone i knew but I couldn't hear who.
I pulled the blanket over my head and lay there listening while my heart tried to hammer its way out of my chest. I heard footsteps outside, inside me outside me in the yard on the rough in the walls. I heard it everywhere—soft, careful, like someone testing each step so it  wouldn’t creak too loudly. Or maybe it was just my pulse in my ears. The difference stopped mattering after a while.
The next thing I remember is waking up in the forest.
It was a deep night, the kind where the trees swallow moonlight and every shadow feels personal, like it’s been waiting for you specifically. I was barefoot. The ground was cold and damp under my feet, and the pajamas I wore weren’t mine. They were too big, sleeves hanging past my hands, pants bunched around my ankles. They smelled like home, a smell I forgot before I remembered it, sour breath, and something metallic—almost like the memory left to dry for days.
In the left pocket I found a small stack of photographs.
They were pictures of me with people I never met.
Some showed me as a toddler playing in a yard with someone I didn’t recognize. Others were recent—me riding my bike in front of our new house, me asleep in my bed through the window (taken from inside my room), me sitting at the kitchen table eating cereal with my back to the unknown person. The last few were... wrong. They showed me at ages I hadn’t reached yet. Me at ten. Me at thirteen. One of me as an adult, standing in a doorway I didn’t recognize, looking back over my shoulder with wide, terrified eyes. All of them were in full, vivid color. My mom had never owned a color printer. She still doesn’t. She couldn’t have afforded the ink even if she had.
I started walking because staying still felt worse. The trees all looked the same. No matter which direction I chose, the path seemed to curve back on itself, as if the woods were slowly tightening around me like a rope.
After what felt like hours I saw a figure standing by a little creek that cut through the woods. Miss Herrett—my old neighbor from the apartment complex, the one who used to give me hard candies and let me watch cartoons at her place when Mom worked late.
She smiled the same gentle smile I remembered and waved me over with fingers that seemed a little too long like someone tried to stretch her skin over their own body. “Come on, sweetheart. You’ll be safe if you cross the water. Just come to me.”
Her voice felt wrong. It looked kinda like her, down to the little mole on her cheek, but the voice was off and her body too—like it was being pushed through a throat that wasn’t shaped for human speech. And the smell… God, the smell. Overripe fruit left to rot in the sun, mixed with something deeper, like meat gone bad.
I told her I couldn’t swim.
She kept smiling, but her eyes didn’t move. Not even to blink. “It’s not deep. Just a few steps. Come on. I have a gift for you.”
I took one hesitant step toward the creek before I stepped back.
“Don’t walk away, Joshua,” she said, still smiling with Miss Herrett’s face. “I’m here for you. I’m always here.”
Her voice changed at the last part. It dropped, became deeper, rougher. It sounded exactly like my father. I’ve only ever seen videos of him. I never met him. He died before I was born.
It could not be my dad.
But now I heard his voice coming from behind Miss Herrett’s smiling face, warm and coaxing, telling me to cross the creek so he could finally hug me. He said he had missed me so much. That he’d been waiting a long time. That he had so many things to show me. He told me about futures that are yet to be, pasts that will never be futures that won't because the pasts never happened. Miss Hegret's skin started slowly getting peeled off and under it was my fathers but his skin locket as stretched as miss hegrets his skin looked wrong and old like it had been dead for years but someone tried to keep it clean.
Suddenly I heard running in the tall brush, frantic breathing before my mothers warm arms wrapped around me. She cried, I cried. She carried me home and I felt finally safe again but every time I told her about this she never believed me so I stopped. I'm telling this now because I'm hearing my mothers voice outside my window. The thing is, she passed away a week ago and her steps and her voice in the walls. seems like they found me again.

This isn’t just a story. It’s a memory I’ve carried since I was eight years old, one that’s never fit together the way memories should. The edges are too sharp in some places, too blurred in others. I’m sharing it now because I’m starting to understand that it was never random. None of it.
When I was eight, I would sometimes wake up in a different part of the house than where I’d fallen asleep. My bed would be empty, sheets already cold, and I’d find myself on the couch, or curled on the hallway floor like a discarded doll, or once even sitting upright at the side of the locket door like i've tried to get outside or with my head resting on my arms as if I’d been waiting for someone. My mom would laugh it off and call it sleepwalking. “You’ve always done that, sweetheart. Nothing to worry about.”
I was too young to question why it only started after we moved into the old apartment, or why I never remembered the walk. Or why some mornings I tasted metal in my mouth and found dirt under my fingernails or scratches from a bush.
Then my mom finally scraped together enough money for a fresh start: a real house, two stories, with a yard that backed right up against the woods. For the first few weeks everything felt clean and safe. The strange nights stopped. Mom always remembered to lock the doors and everything felt safe.
Until it didn’t.
One night I woke to a sound at my bedroom window on the second floor. A slow, deliberate knocking—three measured taps, then silence, then three more. Not like a branch scraping in the wind. Not like an animal. Too patient. Too familiar. And underneath the knocks, threading through them like something wet being dragged across dry leaves, came a voice. Rasping, low, almost gurgling. It said my name. Not whispered. Spoken clearly, the way an adult speaks to a child they know well. The way someone who has watched you for years speaks when they finally decide it’s time. It sounded like it was trying to sound like someone i knew but I couldn't hear who.
I pulled the blanket over my head and lay there listening while my heart tried to hammer its way out of my chest. I heard footsteps outside, inside me outside me in the yard on the rough in the walls. I heard it everywhere—soft, careful, like someone testing each step so it  wouldn’t creak too loudly. Or maybe it was just my pulse in my ears. The difference stopped mattering after a while.
The next thing I remember is waking up in the forest.
It was a deep night, the kind where the trees swallow moonlight and every shadow feels personal, like it’s been waiting for you specifically. I was barefoot. The ground was cold and damp under my feet, and the pajamas I wore weren’t mine. They were too big, sleeves hanging past my hands, pants bunched around my ankles. They smelled like home, a smell I forgot before I remembered it, sour breath, and something metallic—almost like the memory left to dry for days.
In the left pocket I found a small stack of photographs.
They were pictures of me with people I never met.
Some showed me as a toddler playing in a yard with someone I didn’t recognize. Others were recent—me riding my bike in front of our new house, me asleep in my bed through the window (taken from inside my room), me sitting at the kitchen table eating cereal with my back to the unknown person. The last few were... wrong. They showed me at ages I hadn’t reached yet. Me at ten. Me at thirteen. One of me as an adult, standing in a doorway I didn’t recognize, looking back over my shoulder with wide, terrified eyes. All of them were in full, vivid color. My mom had never owned a color printer. She still doesn’t. She couldn’t have afforded the ink even if she had.
I started walking because staying still felt worse. The trees all looked the same. No matter which direction I chose, the path seemed to curve back on itself, as if the woods were slowly tightening around me like a rope.
After what felt like hours I saw a figure standing by a little creek that cut through the woods. Miss Herrett—my old neighbor from the apartment complex, the one who used to give me hard candies and let me watch cartoons at her place when Mom worked late.
She smiled the same gentle smile I remembered and waved me over with fingers that seemed a little too long like someone tried to stretch her skin over their own body. “Come on, sweetheart. You’ll be safe if you cross the water. Just come to me.”
Her voice felt wrong. It looked kinda like her, down to the little mole on her cheek, but the voice was off and her body too—like it was being pushed through a throat that wasn’t shaped for human speech. And the smell… God, the smell. Overripe fruit left to rot in the sun, mixed with something deeper, like meat gone bad.
I told her I couldn’t swim.
She kept smiling, but her eyes didn’t move. Not even to blink. “It’s not deep. Just a few steps. Come on. I have a gift for you.”
I took one hesitant step toward the creek before I stepped back.
“Don’t walk away, Joshua,” she said, still smiling with Miss Herrett’s face. “I’m here for you. I’m always here.”
Her voice changed at the last part. It dropped, became deeper, rougher. It sounded exactly like my father. I’ve only ever seen videos of him. I never met him. He died before I was born.
It could not be my dad.
But now I heard his voice coming from behind Miss Herrett’s smiling face, warm and coaxing, telling me to cross the creek so he could finally hug me. He said he had missed me so much. That he’d been waiting a long time. That he had so many things to show me. He told me about futures that are yet to be, pasts that will never be futures that won't because the pasts never happened. Miss Hegret's skin started slowly getting peeled off and under it was my fathers but his skin locket as stretched as miss hegrets his skin looked wrong and old like it had been dead for years but someone tried to keep it clean.
Suddenly I heard running in the tall brush, frantic breathing before my mothers warm arms wrapped around me. She cried, I cried. She carried me home and I felt finally safe again but every time I told her about this she never believed me so I stopped. I'm telling this now because I'm hearing my mothers voice outside my window. The thing is, she passed away a week ago and her steps and her voice in the walls. seems like they found me again.

This isn’t just a story. It’s a memory I’ve carried since I was eight years old, one that’s never quite fit together the way memories should. The edges are too sharp in some places, too blurred in others, like someone else was holding the camera the whole time. I’m sharing it now because I’m starting to understand that it was never random. None of it.

When I was eight, I would sometimes wake up in a different part of the house than where I’d fallen asleep. My bed would be empty, sheets already cold, and I’d find myself on the couch, or curled on the hallway floor like a discarded doll, or once even sitting upright at the kitchen table with my head resting on my arms as if I’d been waiting for someone. My shirt would be on backwards. Or inside out. Or missing entirely. My mom would laugh it off and call it sleepwalking. “You’ve always done that, sweetheart. Nothing to worry about.”

I was too young to question why it only started after we moved into the old apartment, or why I never remembered the walk. Or why some mornings I tasted metal in my mouth and found dirt under my fingernails.

Then my mom finally scraped together enough money for a fresh start: a real house, two stories, with a yard that backed right up against the woods. For the first few weeks everything felt clean and safe. The strange nights stopped.

Until they didn’t.

One night I woke to a sound at my bedroom window on the second floor. A slow, deliberate knocking—three measured taps, then silence, then three more. Not like a branch scraping in the wind. Not like an animal. Too patient. Too familiar. And underneath the knocks, threading through them like something wet being dragged across dry leaves, came a voice. Rasping, low, almost gurgling. It said my name. Not whispered. Spoken clearly, the way an adult speaks to a child they know well. The way someone who has watched you for years speaks when they finally decide it’s time.

I pulled the blanket over my head and lay there listening while my heart tried to hammer its way out of my chest. I heard footsteps—soft, careful, like someone testing each step so the shingles wouldn’t creak too loudly. The sound came from outside, then inside the walls, then inside my head. The difference stopped mattering after a while.

The next thing I remember is waking up in the forest.

It was deep night, the kind where the trees swallow moonlight and every shadow feels personal, like it’s been waiting for you specifically. I was barefoot. The ground was cold and damp under my feet, and the pajamas I wore weren’t mine. They were too big, sleeves hanging past my hands, pants bunched around my ankles. They smelled like old sweat, sour breath, and something metallic—almost like blood left to dry for days.

In the left pocket I found a small stack of photographs.

They were pictures of me.

Some showed me as a toddler playing in a yard I didn’t recognize. Others were recent—me riding my bike in front of our new house, me asleep in my bed through the window (taken from inside my room), me sitting at the kitchen table eating cereal with my back to the camera. The last few were... wrong. They showed me at ages I hadn’t reached yet. Me at ten. Me at thirteen. One of me as an adult, standing in a doorway I didn’t recognize, looking back over my shoulder with wide, terrified eyes. All of them were in full, vivid color. My mom had never owned a color printer. She still doesn’t.

I started walking because staying still felt worse. The trees all looked the same. No matter which direction I chose, the path seemed to curve back on itself, as if the woods were slowly tightening around me like a throat.

After what felt like hours I saw a figure standing by a little creek that cut through the woods. Miss Herrett—my old neighbor from the apartment complex, the one who used to give me hard candies and let me watch cartoons at her place when Mom worked late.

She smiled the same gentle smile I remembered and waved me over with fingers that seemed a little too long. “Come on, sweetheart. You’ll be safe if you cross the water. Just come to me.”

Her voice felt wrong. It looked like her, down to the little mole on her cheek, but the voice was off—like it was being pushed through a throat that wasn’t shaped for human speech. And the smell… God, the smell. Overripe fruit left to rot in the sun, mixed with something deeper, like meat gone bad.

I told her I couldn’t swim.

She kept smiling, but her eyes didn’t move. Not even to blink. “It’s not deep. Just a few steps. Come on. I have a gift for you.”

I took one hesitant step toward the creek and then the night exploded.

Footsteps crashed through the underbrush all around me—sometimes quiet and close, sometimes loud and far away, as if many things were moving in perfect coordination. Voices overlapped in a sick chorus: some whispering my name, some screaming it, some laughing in a wet, choking way.

I stepped back.

“Don’t walk away, Joshua,” she said, still smiling with Miss Herrett’s face. “I’m here for you. I’m always here.”

Her voice changed at the last part. It dropped, became deeper, rougher. It sounded exactly like my father. I’ve only ever seen videos of him. I never met him. He died before I was born.

It could not be my dad.

But now I heard his voice coming from behind Miss Herrett’s smiling face, warm and coaxing, telling me to cross the creek so he could finally hug me. He said he had missed me so much. That he’d been waiting a long time. That he had so many things to show me. He spoke of futures that would never happen and pasts that had already been rewritten.

Suddenly I heard frantic running through the tall brush. Then my mother’s warm arms wrapped around me. She cried, I cried. She carried me home and for a moment I felt safe again.

But every time I tried to tell her about it, she never believed me. So I stopped.

I’m telling this now because last night I heard my mother outside my window, gently knocking—three measured taps, then silence, then three more.

The thing is… she passed away a week ago.

The creek

This isn’t just a story. It’s a memory I’ve carried since I was eight years old, one that’s never quite fit together the way memories should. The edges are too sharp in some places, too blurred in others, like someone else was holding the camera the whole time. I’m sharing it now because I’m starting to understand that it was never random. None of it.

When I was eight, I would sometimes wake up in a different part of the house than where I’d fallen asleep. My bed would be empty, sheets already cold, and I’d find myself on the couch, or curled on the hallway floor like a discarded doll, or once even sitting upright at the kitchen table with my head resting on my arms as if I’d been waiting for someone. My shirt would be on backwards. Or inside out. Or missing entirely. My mom would laugh it off and call it sleepwalking. “You’ve always done that, sweetheart. Nothing to worry about.”

I was too young to question why it only started after we moved into the old apartment, or why I never remembered the walk. Or why some mornings I tasted metal in my mouth and found dirt under my fingernails.

Then my mom finally scraped together enough money for a fresh start: a real house, two stories, with a yard that backed right up against the woods. For the first few weeks everything felt clean and safe. The strange nights stopped.

Until they didn’t.

One night I woke to a sound at my bedroom window on the second floor. A slow, deliberate knocking—three measured taps, then silence, then three more. Not like a branch scraping in the wind. Not like an animal. Too patient. Too familiar. And underneath the knocks, threading through them like something wet being dragged across dry leaves, came a voice. Rasping, low, almost gurgling. It said my name. Not whispered. Spoken clearly, the way an adult speaks to a child they know well. The way someone who has watched you for years speaks when they finally decide it’s time.

I pulled the blanket over my head and lay there listening while my heart tried to hammer its way out of my chest. I heard footsteps—soft, careful, like someone testing each step so the shingles wouldn’t creak too loudly. The sound came from outside, then inside the walls, then inside my head. The difference stopped mattering after a while.

The next thing I remember is waking up in the forest.

It was deep night, the kind where the trees swallow moonlight and every shadow feels personal, like it’s been waiting for you specifically. I was barefoot. The ground was cold and damp under my feet, and the pajamas I wore weren’t mine. They were too big, sleeves hanging past my hands, pants bunched around my ankles. They smelled like old sweat, sour breath, and something metallic—almost like blood left to dry for days.

In the left pocket I found a small stack of photographs.

They were pictures of me.

Some showed me as a toddler playing in a yard I didn’t recognize. Others were recent—me riding my bike in front of our new house, me asleep in my bed through the window (taken from inside my room), me sitting at the kitchen table eating cereal with my back to the camera. The last few were... wrong. They showed me at ages I hadn’t reached yet. Me at ten. Me at thirteen. One of me as an adult, standing in a doorway I didn’t recognize, looking back over my shoulder with wide, terrified eyes. All of them were in full, vivid color. My mom had never owned a color printer. She still doesn’t.

I started walking because staying still felt worse. The trees all looked the same. No matter which direction I chose, the path seemed to curve back on itself, as if the woods were slowly tightening around me like a throat.

After what felt like hours I saw a figure standing by a little creek that cut through the woods. Miss Herrett—my old neighbor from the apartment complex, the one who used to give me hard candies and let me watch cartoons at her place when Mom worked late.

She smiled the same gentle smile I remembered and waved me over with fingers that seemed a little too long. “Come on, sweetheart. You’ll be safe if you cross the water. Just come to me.”

Her voice felt wrong. It looked like her, down to the little mole on her cheek, but the voice was off—like it was being pushed through a throat that wasn’t shaped for human speech. And the smell… God, the smell. Overripe fruit left to rot in the sun, mixed with something deeper, like meat gone bad.

I told her I couldn’t swim.

She kept smiling, but her eyes didn’t move. Not even to blink. “It’s not deep. Just a few steps. Come on. I have a gift for you.”

I took one hesitant step toward the creek and then the night exploded.

Footsteps crashed through the underbrush all around me—sometimes quiet and close, sometimes loud and far away, as if many things were moving in perfect coordination. Voices overlapped in a sick chorus: some whispering my name, some screaming it, some laughing in a wet, choking way.

I stepped back.

“Don’t walk away, Joshua,” she said, still smiling with Miss Herrett’s face. “I’m here for you. I’m always here.”

Her voice changed at the last part. It dropped, became deeper, rougher. It sounded exactly like my father. I’ve only ever seen videos of him. I never met him. He died before I was born.

It could not be my dad.

But now I heard his voice coming from behind Miss Herrett’s smiling face, warm and coaxing, telling me to cross the creek so he could finally hug me. He said he had missed me so much. That he’d been waiting a long time. That he had so many things to show me. He spoke of futures that would never happen and pasts that had already been rewritten.

Suddenly I heard frantic running through the tall brush. Then my mother’s warm arms wrapped around me. She cried, I cried. She carried me home and for a moment I felt safe again.

But every time I tried to tell her about it, she never believed me. So I stopped.

I’m telling this now because last night I heard my mother outside my window, gently knocking—three measured taps, then silence, then three more.

The thing is… she passed away a week ago.

This isn’t just a story. It’s a memory I’ve carried since I was eight years old, one that’s never quite fit together the way memories should. The edges are too sharp in some places, too blurred in others, like someone else was holding the camera the whole time. I’m sharing it now because I’m starting to understand that it was never random. None of it.

When I was eight, I would sometimes wake up in a different part of the house than where I’d fallen asleep. My bed would be empty, sheets already cold, and I’d find myself on the couch, or curled on the hallway floor like a discarded doll, or once even sitting upright at the kitchen table with my head resting on my arms as if I’d been waiting for someone. My shirt would be on backwards. Or inside out. Or missing entirely. My mom would laugh it off and call it sleepwalking. “You’ve always done that, sweetheart. Nothing to worry about.”

I was too young to question why it only started after we moved into the old apartment, or why I never remembered the walk. Or why some mornings I tasted metal in my mouth and found dirt under my fingernails.

Then my mom finally scraped together enough money for a fresh start: a real house, two stories, with a yard that backed right up against the woods. For the first few weeks everything felt clean and safe. The strange nights stopped.

Until they didn’t.

One night I woke to a sound at my bedroom window on the second floor. A slow, deliberate knocking—three measured taps, then silence, then three more. Not like a branch scraping in the wind. Not like an animal. Too patient. Too familiar. And underneath the knocks, threading through them like something wet being dragged across dry leaves, came a voice. Rasping, low, almost gurgling. It said my name. Not whispered. Spoken clearly, the way an adult speaks to a child they know well. The way someone who has watched you for years speaks when they finally decide it’s time.

I pulled the blanket over my head and lay there listening while my heart tried to hammer its way out of my chest. I heard footsteps—soft, careful, like someone testing each step so the shingles wouldn’t creak too loudly. The sound came from outside, then inside the walls, then inside my head. The difference stopped mattering after a while.

The next thing I remember is waking up in the forest.

It was deep night, the kind where the trees swallow moonlight and every shadow feels personal, like it’s been waiting for you specifically. I was barefoot. The ground was cold and damp under my feet, and the pajamas I wore weren’t mine. They were too big, sleeves hanging past my hands, pants bunched around my ankles. They smelled like old sweat, sour breath, and something metallic—almost like blood left to dry for days.

In the left pocket I found a small stack of photographs.

They were pictures of me.

Some showed me as a toddler playing in a yard I didn’t recognize. Others were recent—me riding my bike in front of our new house, me asleep in my bed through the window (taken from inside my room), me sitting at the kitchen table eating cereal with my back to the camera. The last few were... wrong. They showed me at ages I hadn’t reached yet. Me at ten. Me at thirteen. One of me as an adult, standing in a doorway I didn’t recognize, looking back over my shoulder with wide, terrified eyes. All of them were in full, vivid color. My mom had never owned a color printer. She still doesn’t.

I started walking because staying still felt worse. The trees all looked the same. No matter which direction I chose, the path seemed to curve back on itself, as if the woods were slowly tightening around me like a throat.

After what felt like hours I saw a figure standing by a little creek that cut through the woods. Miss Herrett—my old neighbor from the apartment complex, the one who used to give me hard candies and let me watch cartoons at her place when Mom worked late.

She smiled the same gentle smile I remembered and waved me over with fingers that seemed a little too long. “Come on, sweetheart. You’ll be safe if you cross the water. Just come to me.”

Her voice felt wrong. It looked like her, down to the little mole on her cheek, but the voice was off—like it was being pushed through a throat that wasn’t shaped for human speech. And the smell… God, the smell. Overripe fruit left to rot in the sun, mixed with something deeper, like meat gone bad.

I told her I couldn’t swim.

She kept smiling, but her eyes didn’t move. Not even to blink. “It’s not deep. Just a few steps. Come on. I have a gift for you.”

I took one hesitant step toward the creek and then the night exploded.

Footsteps crashed through the underbrush all around me—sometimes quiet and close, sometimes loud and far away, as if many things were moving in perfect coordination. Voices overlapped in a sick chorus: some whispering my name, some screaming it, some laughing in a wet, choking way.

I stepped back.

“Don’t walk away, Joshua,” she said, still smiling with Miss Herrett’s face. “I’m here for you. I’m always here.”

Her voice changed at the last part. It dropped, became deeper, rougher. It sounded exactly like my father. I’ve only ever seen videos of him. I never met him. He died before I was born.

It could not be my dad.

But now I heard his voice coming from behind Miss Herrett’s smiling face, warm and coaxing, telling me to cross the creek so he could finally hug me. He said he had missed me so much. That he’d been waiting a long time. That he had so many things to show me. He spoke of futures that would never happen and pasts that had already been rewritten.

Suddenly I heard frantic running through the tall brush. Then my mother’s warm arms wrapped around me. She cried, I cried. She carried me home and for a moment I felt safe again.

But every time I tried to tell her about it, she never believed me. So I stopped.

I’m telling this now because last night I heard my mother outside my window, gently knocking—three measured taps, then silence, then three more.

The thing is… she passed away a week ago.

This isn’t just a story. It’s a memory I’ve carried since I was eight years old, one that’s never quite fit together the way memories should. The edges are too sharp in some places, too blurred in others, like someone else was holding the camera the whole time. I’m sharing it now because I’m starting to understand that it was never random. None of it.

When I was eight, I would sometimes wake up in a different part of the house than where I’d fallen asleep. My bed would be empty, sheets already cold, and I’d find myself on the couch, or curled on the hallway floor like a discarded doll, or once even sitting upright at the kitchen table with my head resting on my arms as if I’d been waiting for someone. My shirt would be on backwards. Or inside out. Or missing entirely. My mom would laugh it off and call it sleepwalking. “You’ve always done that, sweetheart. Nothing to worry about.”

I was too young to question why it only started after we moved into the old apartment, or why I never remembered the walk. Or why some mornings I tasted metal in my mouth and found dirt under my fingernails.

Then my mom finally scraped together enough money for a fresh start: a real house, two stories, with a yard that backed right up against the woods. For the first few weeks everything felt clean and safe. The strange nights stopped.

Until they didn’t.

One night I woke to a sound at my bedroom window on the second floor. A slow, deliberate knocking—three measured taps, then silence, then three more. Not like a branch scraping in the wind. Not like an animal. Too patient. Too familiar. And underneath the knocks, threading through them like something wet being dragged across dry leaves, came a voice. Rasping, low, almost gurgling. It said my name. Not whispered. Spoken clearly, the way an adult speaks to a child they know well. The way someone who has watched you for years speaks when they finally decide it’s time.

I pulled the blanket over my head and lay there listening while my heart tried to hammer its way out of my chest. I heard footsteps—soft, careful, like someone testing each step so the shingles wouldn’t creak too loudly. The sound came from outside, then inside the walls, then inside my head. The difference stopped mattering after a while.

The next thing I remember is waking up in the forest.

It was deep night, the kind where the trees swallow moonlight and every shadow feels personal, like it’s been waiting for you specifically. I was barefoot. The ground was cold and damp under my feet, and the pajamas I wore weren’t mine. They were too big, sleeves hanging past my hands, pants bunched around my ankles. They smelled like old sweat, sour breath, and something metallic—almost like blood left to dry for days.

In the left pocket I found a small stack of photographs.

They were pictures of me.

Some showed me as a toddler playing in a yard I didn’t recognize. Others were recent—me riding my bike in front of our new house, me asleep in my bed through the window (taken from inside my room), me sitting at the kitchen table eating cereal with my back to the camera. The last few were... wrong. They showed me at ages I hadn’t reached yet. Me at ten. Me at thirteen. One of me as an adult, standing in a doorway I didn’t recognize, looking back over my shoulder with wide, terrified eyes. All of them were in full, vivid color. My mom had never owned a color printer. She still doesn’t.

I started walking because staying still felt worse. The trees all looked the same. No matter which direction I chose, the path seemed to curve back on itself, as if the woods were slowly tightening around me like a throat.

After what felt like hours I saw a figure standing by a little creek that cut through the woods. Miss Herrett—my old neighbor from the apartment complex, the one who used to give me hard candies and let me watch cartoons at her place when Mom worked late.

She smiled the same gentle smile I remembered and waved me over with fingers that seemed a little too long. “Come on, sweetheart. You’ll be safe if you cross the water. Just come to me.”

Her voice felt wrong. It looked like her, down to the little mole on her cheek, but the voice was off—like it was being pushed through a throat that wasn’t shaped for human speech. And the smell… God, the smell. Overripe fruit left to rot in the sun, mixed with something deeper, like meat gone bad.

I told her I couldn’t swim.

She kept smiling, but her eyes didn’t move. Not even to blink. “It’s not deep. Just a few steps. Come on. I have a gift for you.”

I took one hesitant step toward the creek and then the night exploded.

Footsteps crashed through the underbrush all around me—sometimes quiet and close, sometimes loud and far away, as if many things were moving in perfect coordination. Voices overlapped in a sick chorus: some whispering my name, some screaming it, some laughing in a wet, choking way.

I stepped back.

“Don’t walk away, Joshua,” she said, still smiling with Miss Herrett’s face. “I’m here for you. I’m always here.”

Her voice changed at the last part. It dropped, became deeper, rougher. It sounded exactly like my father. I’ve only ever seen videos of him. I never met him. He died before I was born.

It could not be my dad.

But now I heard his voice coming from behind Miss Herrett’s smiling face, warm and coaxing, telling me to cross the creek so he could finally hug me. He said he had missed me so much. That he’d been waiting a long time. That he had so many things to show me. He spoke of futures that would never happen and pasts that had already been rewritten.

Suddenly I heard frantic running through the tall brush. Then my mother’s warm arms wrapped around me. She cried, I cried. She carried me home and for a moment I felt safe again.

But every time I tried to tell her about it, she never believed me. So I stopped.

I’m telling this now because last night I heard my mother outside my window, gently knocking—three measured taps, then silence, then three more.

The thing is… she passed away a week ago.

This isn’t just a story. It’s a memory I’ve carried since I was eight years old, one that’s never quite fit together the way memories should. The edges are too sharp in some places, too blurred in others, like someone else was holding the camera the whole time. I’m sharing it now because I’m starting to understand that it was never random. None of it.

When I was eight, I would sometimes wake up in a different part of the house than where I’d fallen asleep. My bed would be empty, sheets already cold, and I’d find myself on the couch, or curled on the hallway floor like a discarded doll, or once even sitting upright at the kitchen table with my head resting on my arms as if I’d been waiting for someone. My shirt would be on backwards. Or inside out. Or missing entirely. My mom would laugh it off and call it sleepwalking. “You’ve always done that, sweetheart. Nothing to worry about.”

I was too young to question why it only started after we moved into the old apartment, or why I never remembered the walk. Or why some mornings I tasted metal in my mouth and found dirt under my fingernails.

Then my mom finally scraped together enough money for a fresh start: a real house, two stories, with a yard that backed right up against the woods. For the first few weeks everything felt clean and safe. The strange nights stopped.

Until they didn’t.

One night I woke to a sound at my bedroom window on the second floor. A slow, deliberate knocking—three measured taps, then silence, then three more. Not like a branch scraping in the wind. Not like an animal. Too patient. Too familiar. And underneath the knocks, threading through them like something wet being dragged across dry leaves, came a voice. Rasping, low, almost gurgling. It said my name. Not whispered. Spoken clearly, the way an adult speaks to a child they know well. The way someone who has watched you for years speaks when they finally decide it’s time.

I pulled the blanket over my head and lay there listening while my heart tried to hammer its way out of my chest. I heard footsteps—soft, careful, like someone testing each step so the shingles wouldn’t creak too loudly. The sound came from outside, then inside the walls, then inside my head. The difference stopped mattering after a while.

The next thing I remember is waking up in the forest.

It was deep night, the kind where the trees swallow moonlight and every shadow feels personal, like it’s been waiting for you specifically. I was barefoot. The ground was cold and damp under my feet, and the pajamas I wore weren’t mine. They were too big, sleeves hanging past my hands, pants bunched around my ankles. They smelled like old sweat, sour breath, and something metallic—almost like blood left to dry for days.

In the left pocket I found a small stack of photographs.

They were pictures of me.

Some showed me as a toddler playing in a yard I didn’t recognize. Others were recent—me riding my bike in front of our new house, me asleep in my bed through the window (taken from inside my room), me sitting at the kitchen table eating cereal with my back to the camera. The last few were... wrong. They showed me at ages I hadn’t reached yet. Me at ten. Me at thirteen. One of me as an adult, standing in a doorway I didn’t recognize, looking back over my shoulder with wide, terrified eyes. All of them were in full, vivid color. My mom had never owned a color printer. She still doesn’t.

I started walking because staying still felt worse. The trees all looked the same. No matter which direction I chose, the path seemed to curve back on itself, as if the woods were slowly tightening around me like a throat.

After what felt like hours I saw a figure standing by a little creek that cut through the woods. Miss Herrett—my old neighbor from the apartment complex, the one who used to give me hard candies and let me watch cartoons at her place when Mom worked late.

She smiled the same gentle smile I remembered and waved me over with fingers that seemed a little too long. “Come on, sweetheart. You’ll be safe if you cross the water. Just come to me.”

Her voice felt wrong. It looked like her, down to the little mole on her cheek, but the voice was off—like it was being pushed through a throat that wasn’t shaped for human speech. And the smell… God, the smell. Overripe fruit left to rot in the sun, mixed with something deeper, like meat gone bad.

I told her I couldn’t swim.

She kept smiling, but her eyes didn’t move. Not even to blink. “It’s not deep. Just a few steps. Come on. I have a gift for you.”

I took one hesitant step toward the creek and then the night exploded.

Footsteps crashed through the underbrush all around me—sometimes quiet and close, sometimes loud and far away, as if many things were moving in perfect coordination. Voices overlapped in a sick chorus: some whispering my name, some screaming it, some laughing in a wet, choking way.

I stepped back.

“Don’t walk away, Joshua,” she said, still smiling with Miss Herrett’s face. “I’m here for you. I’m always here.”

Her voice changed at the last part. It dropped, became deeper, rougher. It sounded exactly like my father. I’ve only ever seen videos of him. I never met him. He died before I was born.

It could not be my dad.

But now I heard his voice coming from behind Miss Herrett’s smiling face, warm and coaxing, telling me to cross the creek so he could finally hug me. He said he had missed me so much. That he’d been waiting a long time. That he had so many things to show me. He spoke of futures that would never happen and pasts that had already been rewritten.

Suddenly I heard frantic running through the tall brush. Then my mother’s warm arms wrapped around me. She cried, I cried. She carried me home and for a moment I felt safe again.

But every time I tried to tell her about it, she never believed me. So I stopped.

I’m telling this now because last night I heard my mother outside my window, gently knocking—three measured taps, then silence, then three more.

The thing is… she passed away a week ago.

This isn’t just a story. It’s a memory I’ve carried since I was eight years old, one that’s never quite fit together the way memories should. The edges are too sharp in some places, too blurred in others, like someone else was holding the camera the whole time. I’m sharing it now because I’m starting to understand that it was never random. None of it.

When I was eight, I would sometimes wake up in a different part of the house than where I’d fallen asleep. My bed would be empty, sheets already cold, and I’d find myself on the couch, or curled on the hallway floor like a discarded doll, or once even sitting upright at the kitchen table with my head resting on my arms as if I’d been waiting for someone. My shirt would be on backwards. Or inside out. Or missing entirely. My mom would laugh it off and call it sleepwalking. “You’ve always done that, sweetheart. Nothing to worry about.”

I was too young to question why it only started after we moved into the old apartment, or why I never remembered the walk. Or why some mornings I tasted metal in my mouth and found dirt under my fingernails.

Then my mom finally scraped together enough money for a fresh start: a real house, two stories, with a yard that backed right up against the woods. For the first few weeks everything felt clean and safe. The strange nights stopped.

Until they didn’t.

One night I woke to a sound at my bedroom window on the second floor. A slow, deliberate knocking—three measured taps, then silence, then three more. Not like a branch scraping in the wind. Not like an animal. Too patient. Too familiar. And underneath the knocks, threading through them like something wet being dragged across dry leaves, came a voice. Rasping, low, almost gurgling. It said my name. Not whispered. Spoken clearly, the way an adult speaks to a child they know well. The way someone who has watched you for years speaks when they finally decide it’s time.

I pulled the blanket over my head and lay there listening while my heart tried to hammer its way out of my chest. I heard footsteps—soft, careful, like someone testing each step so the shingles wouldn’t creak too loudly. The sound came from outside, then inside the walls, then inside my head. The difference stopped mattering after a while.

The next thing I remember is waking up in the forest.

It was deep night, the kind where the trees swallow moonlight and every shadow feels personal, like it’s been waiting for you specifically. I was barefoot. The ground was cold and damp under my feet, and the pajamas I wore weren’t mine. They were too big, sleeves hanging past my hands, pants bunched around my ankles. They smelled like old sweat, sour breath, and something metallic—almost like blood left to dry for days.

In the left pocket I found a small stack of photographs.

They were pictures of me.

Some showed me as a toddler playing in a yard I didn’t recognize. Others were recent—me riding my bike in front of our new house, me asleep in my bed through the window (taken from inside my room), me sitting at the kitchen table eating cereal with my back to the camera. The last few were... wrong. They showed me at ages I hadn’t reached yet. Me at ten. Me at thirteen. One of me as an adult, standing in a doorway I didn’t recognize, looking back over my shoulder with wide, terrified eyes. All of them were in full, vivid color. My mom had never owned a color printer. She still doesn’t.

I started walking because staying still felt worse. The trees all looked the same. No matter which direction I chose, the path seemed to curve back on itself, as if the woods were slowly tightening around me like a throat.

After what felt like hours I saw a figure standing by a little creek that cut through the woods. Miss Herrett—my old neighbor from the apartment complex, the one who used to give me hard candies and let me watch cartoons at her place when Mom worked late.

She smiled the same gentle smile I remembered and waved me over with fingers that seemed a little too long. “Come on, sweetheart. You’ll be safe if you cross the water. Just come to me.”

Her voice felt wrong. It looked like her, down to the little mole on her cheek, but the voice was off—like it was being pushed through a throat that wasn’t shaped for human speech. And the smell… God, the smell. Overripe fruit left to rot in the sun, mixed with something deeper, like meat gone bad.

I told her I couldn’t swim.

She kept smiling, but her eyes didn’t move. Not even to blink. “It’s not deep. Just a few steps. Come on. I have a gift for you.”

I took one hesitant step toward the creek and then the night exploded.

Footsteps crashed through the underbrush all around me—sometimes quiet and close, sometimes loud and far away, as if many things were moving in perfect coordination. Voices overlapped in a sick chorus: some whispering my name, some screaming it, some laughing in a wet, choking way.

I stepped back.

“Don’t walk away, Joshua,” she said, still smiling with Miss Herrett’s face. “I’m here for you. I’m always here.”

Her voice changed at the last part. It dropped, became deeper, rougher. It sounded exactly like my father. I’ve only ever seen videos of him. I never met him. He died before I was born.

It could not be my dad.

But now I heard his voice coming from behind Miss Herrett’s smiling face, warm and coaxing, telling me to cross the creek so he could finally hug me. He said he had missed me so much. That he’d been waiting a long time. That he had so many things to show me. He spoke of futures that would never happen and pasts that had already been rewritten.

Suddenly I heard frantic running through the tall brush. Then my mother’s warm arms wrapped around me. She cried, I cried. She carried me home and for a moment I felt safe again.

But every time I tried to tell her about it, she never believed me. So I stopped.

I’m telling this now because last night I heard my mother outside my window, gently knocking—three measured taps, then silence, then three more.

The thing is… she passed away a week ago.