I feel alone and I feel that's okay
I have been in a long distance relationship that ended in grief last month. All the people who know/knew us both, live far away. So after memorial there, I am by myself now here.
With the long days at hospital and practical things that needed to be arranged after, I did not have much time to process everything for the first two, three weeks.
Many have ask me how I'm doing or how I'm feeling. And sometimes I don't feel like explaining yet again, but also I don't know myself how to articulate my whole range and mix of emotions.
I figure they are worried and see an introvert part of me hiding emotions and not opening up like they expect.
While writing this, I'm starting to feel that maybe it's a good idea to get myself a diary so I can write every day.