I think this is just a vent of my long battle
It’s crazy and unfortunate that all the names I see in this thread are new. I joined almost two years ago. And have gone quiet for a few months after relapsing.
I’m on Suboxone now and it helps immensely. There are days when I don’t use. I still can’t kick the habit though. It’s crazy because it hardly even works when using it with Suboxone. The days I don’t use I have sniffles and yawning like usual but it doesn’t get much worse. I’m subscribed the Suboxone doses a day as needed. And I usually only do one in the morning and go drink 4 feel frees the rest of the day. It’s at least better than the 12 I used to do.
I’m hoping to really stop for good here in the next two weeks. I’m working in New Jersey and they are hard as fuck to find. My family and girl don’t know I’ve been using them again for the last two or so months.
It’s so crazy though. Every time I drink one I know I don’t feel it anymore. And I’ve noticed my body is really starting to reject them. Like I can’t have more than 4 anymore without pretending I have food poisoning. I only get the negative effects now.