Identity and Guilt?
Hi all,
Through the transition from university to post grad full time work, coupled with going on birth control and lexapro, I ended up gaining quite a bit of weight, to the point where I had gone through multiple pant sizes and just felt overall uncomfortable in my body. I had come to accept this new being through body positivity and neutrality, however it had come to the point where I have developed some health issues (including what I strongly suspect as sleep apnea) as a result. No amount of self love was compensating for the physical and mental health issues this was causing.
I was able to qualify for a prescription for generic or name brand ozempic, and I am feeling all sorts of emotions. Part of me is very excited for this new health journey - I plan on getting into weight lifting, back into Pilates and walks, and sharing clothes again with my partner who is a bit smaller than me. We used to share clothes all the time until about 2023/2024 (having a girlfriend is the best).
But at the same time, I feel almost…guilty? Up until recently, I was fairly against GLP1s for people who were not severely overweight. If you told me a year ago I’d be going on ozempic I would NEVER believe it! I also don’t plan on telling anyone other than my best friend and partner, so it feels weird keeping something so big from them when I am a very open book.
Has anyone else experienced similar? Did you eventually make peace with it?