Almost there
Been raising my children solo for over ten years. All of them will, I think, be moved out by the end of the year. It’s been difficult having them as young adults in the home, the lack of contribution I expect as they’ve gotten older is weighing on me. But I wake up with this pit in my stomach sick feeling thinking about them no longer being here. This year was the last sports, the last of school, the last time they wanted to hang out. I live with them and already feel the loss as they are so distant. Just knowing there will be no noise in the house, no one to run to the store with, no one asking me questions, I’m sick to my stomach each day and they haven’t even physically left yet. I have no friends and no family around, besides work I only get out to shop, I don’t think I can go to places solo. I’m worried of falling into an endless rut or the routine of home and work and back home again. Plus other insecurities that come with aging in general. This is a terribly horrible feeling. I just don’t know what to do, I’ve tried at least making friends but I just don’t vibe with people in my area and moving isn’t an option at this point. For those with no spouse, family or friends, please share anything that has helped or has been a distraction for you.