How do you cope
Trigger warning: Death Anxiety, Pet loss
How do you cope with death anxiety? Since I had to put my cat down 3 years ago I can't get past it. I've bounced back before because I never saw it. However I promised Rupert I wouldn't leave him, so he was put to sleep in my arms. I don't see a future. I don't see a point. Everything I love will disappear so why make plans. Why enjoy anything. I'm on meds, got an OT and a social therapist. I am trying everything I can and nothing is working. I am 36 and only 2 years ago is the first time I have not had any toxicity of any kind in my life.
Now I worry I wasted all my good years, and the man who waited for me for 17 years who I plan to marry won't have as much time with me because of that.
Idk I'm just lost, and need some hope.
Sorry for how long this is.