u/chudinaballerina

too genderfluid for kitchencels or girldinnerdiaries, so here you go.

academically dismissed from university. credit card maxxed. ex* who i was planning my future around left. dependent on weed to feel normal, both emotionally and physically. only have fast food work experience, mcdonalds still rejects me. living with my parents. cant take care of myself. no desire for any real career, just want to be a housewife or a rapper like min yoongi but i have very few of the attributes needed for either of those.

everyday i wake up and i feel so little interest in doing things that i rarely even consume media with substance, let alone participate in actual hobbies. bts is the only thing im remotely passionate about. with everything else i lack the energy to engage and lose interest extremely quickly, but i have this bottomless pit of energy when it comes to bts that ive never had for anything else. i dont have any productive use for this, though. my life has no purpose other than to stream bts and defend them online. seeing them in concert may have been the single best day of my life and i feel like its probably only downhill from there.

i wasnt made to exist as a human being in this world. killing myself feels like a waste because i can always do it later if shit still sucks, but i dont know how to be alive.

*hate me for being a fakecel but i only pull when i feminize myself and lie about my feelings so it aint that great

yes its mlp angst edit meme, princess luna gets it and if you dont then get da hell out of here!!!