comments from family friends
at a kid’s bday party and this family friend who doesn’t actually like me or any of my family members (she’s invited bc my parents are very close friends with her husband and he’s cool) didn’t really acknowledge my presence. which is for the best probably. she and her friends were suddenly gossiping in a corner in hushed voices and all of a sudden just start staring at me? then she very loudly started to ask across the room, what do i do for work, what did i study in, what degree do i have, why don’t i have a masters, why am i not married yet, do i want to get married, don’t i want a family, etc. it felt like an actual interrogation. i asked very curtly and she ran back to her friends, relaying all my answers to them and they kept whispering and laughing.
these women are like in their fifties and have known me since i was a child. it’s already bad enough i cant get my life together and have people my own age judging me, now i have to deal with women who peaked in their teens making fun of me too.
i am so insecure with where i’ve ended up in life. i never thought i’d be here but i am. i am useless.
edit: forgot to mention, she said if i wait too long for marriage, i won’t be able to have kids. i am in my late 20s.