Is there any hope for me? - American high schooler
Please try not to judge me too hard. I beg. And don't just comment something like "No." Not because it's not true, and not because I need any reasoning— I know I fucked it all up. Just for my ego. Maybe that's a sign in and of itself. But I know not many people will see this anyways.
I'm 17 year old Junior and have been hospitalized 3 times, all 3 years of high school, not counting partial hospitalizations (two of those, both during the school year). I have a GPA of 2, roughly. It hurts me too much to check.
Before all this, I was a straight A honors student. Middle school, all honors. Freshman year, one AP class, Beginning of Junior year, 4 AP's. I have no doubt I could've handled them all stellarly if life didn't bestow me such draining circumstances.
But here I am, no extracurriculars, low GPA, looking towards community college. Absolutely abysmal ACT score. But that can be retaken if I raise up the money. But I really want to move out during college. My parents are unconventional and the source of many of my troubles. I can't help this violent need of escape from this life. I am putting it lightly, but I need to leave.
I very much cannot afford the dorms at the local community college, and my parents want to keep me here as long as they can. It's cultural for them. My local community college is the only one available.
We live close to a major city. I always wanted to go to college there. Can I do anything my senior year to go to that college? I'm sure I can write up some good essay, and my teachers are kind enough to write me a good letter, and I have a good sob story to boot. Is there any hope for me other than community college?
I don't know how many extracurriculars I can scrounge up during senior year. Sports are off the table, I failed too many classes. But any piece of advice would be helpful. I know I'm damned. So if I am, tell me so. But God, if someone can offer me a little bit of hope, that's all I'll need.
Maybe I shouldn't be saying this, but the college I want to go to is UIC. And said community college is JJC. I am in the Chicagoland area.
Thank you!!