u/clown_sugars

to be fair their IQs hover around 120 and they are all much nicer people than me

has anyone done this? currently md1 and interested in doing academic philosophy alongside clinical work.

i'm being so serious i'm done dating

bored and sadposting but i realise now that the best sex of my life involved these lesbian frotting marathons where he kissed my back and called me baby. it's like that Freud quote were he says not all of us are sodomites.

started reading Shlovsky's Тетива: О несходстве сходного and am just struck by the vastitude of literature, and all the words written that are, once read, maybe, before spilling forever into nothing. perhaps it is good that everything will be digitised by a LLM, so at least it's stored somewhere.

truly, it doesn't matter what you have or haven't read, which is an insecurity all of us have to some degree.

going on a third date with this cute guy. kinda scared because this is the most time i've ever spent with a guy without having fucked.

we are all freaks with hearts and sad pet cruelties. it gives me hope that something will come of us losers.

so beautiful

who likes hiking and philosophy.

basic psychological profile of this guy who has blocked me:

- parents forced him into conversion therapy (he's bisexual)

- dates a girl in college for 6 years, genuinely loves her

- girl breaks up with him because he's too afraid to commit (he doesn't want his parents to "win" over his bisexuality)

- becomes depressed

- switches prestigious jobs, starts failing and getting reprimanded

- becomes more depressed

- meets me, we have great sex, great chemistry, meet up multiple times over a month

- starts ghosting me, i eventually get fed up one day and demand him to tell me what's up, his aunt has died and he "wants space."

- i call him but he's blocked me.

what i don't understand is how he could tell me so much about his life (including his frequent suicidal ideations) and just cut me out. i know it's delusional to think he will ever unblock me, but i honestly love him so much and i feel like i met someone perfect for me who now hates me. i want to call him again but i know that the situation won't be helped. i have embarrassed and debased myself longing after him and now i feel insane. i don't want to reach out again because i realize that he's blocked me and that makes me feel like an insane stalker. i just want him to hug me one last time.

the new narcissistic paradigm for gen z?

when "I wish you well, but rn I need space"

he didn't block me

title.