Gay friendship-breakups
Has anyone gone through this? It’s been about three years since we cut contact and I still think about him a lot. Probably the most I’ve ever platonically loved a friend ever and the fact that I recognize it was mostly my fault that the friendship ended makes it more painful. He was also my first close gay friend and we learned and grew from/alongside a lot with each other. I still run into him time to time since we run in adjacent social circles in the same city and we remain civil if not slightly awkward.
I’ve made gay friends since and have been more or less taking full advantage of gay life in the city or whatever but I’m still not fully over the breakup even if I’ve made peace with it. I’ve also never been in a relationship so idk if this is a worse heartbreak than a bf-breakup but it’s genuinely to date still the most grief-inducing event I’ve gone through.