Freaking out .. operation on Monday morning, and feel I’ve gone down one too many rabbit holes !
Hi everyone & Happy Saturday.
I was diagnosed 2 weeks ago with grade 1, having robotic surgery on Monday, here in Spain., where I have lived for almost 40 yrs.
I’m 66 and not worried about losing my bits, but I am worried about recovery & what May come after.
I only have my 22 yr old daughter to help me, and I already went through breast cancer 8 years ago, had skin cancer earlier this year, caused by the radiation for the breast cancer.
I feel like this is a house of cards, each treatment seems to cause more cancers and more problems.
I’m terrified I will need more treatment depending on the stage, but I know in my head I can’t do any of it, due to the knock on effect.
Before radiation … no one told me it stays in your system for up to 9 years causing havoc all over.
I’ve gone through so much the last few years, and was just getting back on my feet - then this.
My ex husband took a fraudulent loan out on my home without my knowledge or signature .. I had to buy my own home at auction to keep myself and my daughter with a roof over our heads. It’s been a nightmare, I don’t know how much more I can take .
Sorry for the rant, but I’m terrified of what’s to come.