My lazy brother gets to go to a top university while I have to work my a off to get scholarships
I've worked so hard to be one of the top performers in all my classes from elementary up to my senior year in high school. My parents have always been proud of me for that. My brother? not so much. Yet it turns out, he's the one to get into a reputable university while I get to be the sibling to settle for something less just because he's fhe first one to graduate high school and look for colleges. School is the only thing I know that can actually help me make a difference but I! have to settle for a university's financial assistance and work three times harder than I already have been for the past 13 years?!?! Why? : ( If I had known this would happen, this lack of security and support, then I would have asked for something far more better for my birthday--college funds: (I even dreamed of going abroad to broaden my educational experience. But even that seems so far to reach now.
I asked my dad earlier for some cash so I can pay the fees for my request for school records as I am currently preparing college application documents. Guess what? He has some just enough for what I was asking but told me to "ask your mom or your aunt". I cried thinking he would rather let me beg for a little cash from other relatives than to lend me some. This honestly has been such a smack in the face knowinf that there's a possibility for me to not even finish high school.
I know this may seem like I'm some spoiled daughter or whatever. But I just have always aimed higher in life than any of my siblings. I know and have considered that funds may be low because of my brother's tuition since he's graduating college soon but come on. I've expected my parents to do more for me especially since they have treated me like a golden child ever since. I just want a more secure support :(