u/confusion_cats

So yes, I'm coming up for 10 months on SSRIs and apart from coming out of a spiral faster, I'm wondering if they can help me into remission.

I was doing good work with a great therapist, but lost my job, and the market where I live against my skills means I won't get to earn as i did before, maybe ever.

For context, I live in Europe where we have public health system (not mandatory to have insurance, so I don't have it any more).

My GP offered me an anxiety talking group, no sign of therapy on the horizon.

Currently, the sliding scale of BetterHelp, Is still out of budget at the moment.

I did buy the BPD workbook from Amazon but it was 30€ and I'm thinking of sending it back.

Has anyone here managed to get better on anti depressants?

Can it be done?

Thanks!

I recently went through a small rejection that I feel disappointed about, but not much deeper.

Coinciding with said rejection is binge eating!?

I'm talking, compulsively past the point of pain and beyond and it's making me sick for days.

Can I just ask

What the actual fuck🥹

TLDR; Into a new crush: feeling suddenly disgusted and hatred for them by their (normal) texts to me?

I'm 31, have been happily single, and have been really happy in life as well this year.

I have more free time than usual, so I started dating for fun (really just wanting FWB at most)

Anyway obviously I'm now crazy about someone and I am literally so ill (which sucks cuz I thought it was in remission 1000%).

Anyway I'm a bit obsessed with him and how he might feel about me - only seen him once a week for about 6 weeks and we text alllllll the time, normally it's all fun stuff!

I feel like it came outta nowhere and now when his texts don't have a hint of affection (which they never did, by the way, we just really get on) I feel disgusted by his messages. Like, I think I hate him??

Is this splitting??

I've read I hate you don't leave me, should I read it again?

Should I stop whatever might be blooming here? (Can't afford therapy right now - I'm on therapy hiatus, sadly).

Even if harmful, not advisable, can people relate and what's your favourite way to cope?🥹