u/cowgirI

if anyone could tell me about their experience it would mean a ton. i’m looking at homelessness within the next week or 2, i’m female in a relatively safe downtown college-town area. thanks ssssssssssssssss

after many many things happened, i attempted to end my shit. i chugged most of a 750 of jamo, took probably 5 ambiens, put a plastic bag over my head, and sat in my bathtub

i live in a studio apartment above a restaurant. i did what i did at about 9-10am during their opening hours. it was not my intent for anyone to notice, didn’t call for help at all, and i know i didn’t leave the faucet on before i started drifting off but the restaurant flooded really badly. like 30-40k worth of damage badly according to my property mgmt. maybe my foot kicked the faucet, idk.

had no idea about the damage, all i remember is maintenance guys coming into my place and finding me. i didn’t call anyone and i fully expected to die. i remember being put on a stretcher then being put on a psych hold.

psych hold lasted 8 days. lied my way home. got back, had to uber because i have 0 friends, came back to an eviction notice on my door.

attempted again. didn’t work. then got hammered enough to check myself into a r*h**. on the way to said *ehab, i stopped into a gas station and drank a ton for one last hoorah i guess. also drank a shit ton before obv

my medical records show i blew a .5 . actually it says “>.5”

did not know i was capable of this yet im not shocked. lied my way out of treatm*nt. so much more to say but im hammed ofc. got out today. all i want to do is drink and lay down and listen to music. fuck. i can’t take care of myself. i lost everything.