u/cowgirlsteph

I really wanted to get closer to this person, but I just have this feeling that they are keeping up a wall between us. I was texting them almost daily for months and they wouldnt reply 90% of the time but I kept trying. I dont really know how to make friends but i was trying so hard. When they do text, its always as a response. They've texted first twice since we became friends through a friend group last year. Im trying to come to terms that I care a lot more about them than they do about me but its killing me. No matter how many times I tell myself they arent going to text me, I still die a little every time I check my phone. I cant even bring myself to text the group chat anymore because I know they'll see it but not interact. Ive been really struggling through a depressive episode and this person is the only one who hasnt checked in on me. Ive started avoiding them and skipping group hang outs because I just cant pretend that im ok anymore but they dont care enough about me to notice. They are also moving out of state this summer and im completely heartbroken, but I dont feel like I can really express these feelings to them. I dont think they've even noticed that im avoiding them.