u/creepersystem6

I was coming up on two years clean and I broke the streak last week. Ever since it feels like a dam has broken and I just can’t stop. I don’t WANT to stop. I’ve only ever done it on my thighs because it’s easier to hide but I’ve considered switching to my arms just so that maybe someone would see that I’m hurting and take me seriously. I’m in such a weird spot, because I’m not actively suicidal, and I don’t want to die, but I want to get worse. I want to keep hurting. I need someone to notice and care. How far do I have to go before they stop ignoring me? How much is it going to take before I finally start feeling loved? How much do I have to give?

Daisy at home: