u/cristoinmandorla

(repost because it got removed from artistslounge)

​not gonna explain the whole thung becayse ive tried to write this post 4 times and it still comes out too long. anyways, its been like 3 days and the only thing i can think about is drawing even though ive always SUCKED at it, i even managed fo get low grades in art class when i was in middle school. never bothered me bcs i had other hobbies wven though ive always believed being able to draw was cool as fuck. aside from lots of low effort doodling and very occasional attempts at decent drawings ive never bothered to actually try.

in the last 3 days ive randomly become OBSESSED with this. i keep drawing random body parts and this night ive spent i dontbknow how many hours copying a drawing i saw on piterest. its not "good", but I look at it and I'm in disbelief, what do you mean I MADE THIS??? it was my first attempt at shading and I've used a grid because I suck at proportions, which makes me feel slightly less proud but it took so fucking long that I don't care. I don't know what I'm doing anymore. it's like 4 am where I live and I've been at my desk for maybe 5 hours or slightly less.jesus christ. I have responsibilities and exams coming up but this same cycle has repeated for 3 days straight. k just get sucked into it and there's no way for me to do anything but just obey my hands. I'm not even good at it but I don't care and im produ of myself. at the same time I really need to stop because it's affecting my overall ability to function + physical health (my sleep schedule is fucked uppp plusI have back problems and this isn't helping but I genuinely can't stop.) has anyone experienced this??? im so lost

also my head hurts do much. ive spent maybe three hours just shading this shit because i kept making random mistakes and i felt dissatisfied with everything, probably because i couldnt tear my eyes awya from it.im tring to sleep but i CANT an d i think ive spurt a few blood vessels in my eyes because i forget to blonk

not gonna explain the whole thung becayse ive tried to write this post 4 times and it still comes out too long. anyways, its been like 3 days and the only thing i can think about is drawing even though ive always SUCKED at it, i even managed fo get low grades in art class when i was in middle school. never bothered me bcs i had other hobbies wven though ive always believed being able to draw was cool as fuck. aside from lots of low effort doodling and very occasional attempts at decent drawings ive never bother to try.

in the last 3 days ive randomly become OBSESSED with this. i keep drawing random body parts and this night ive spent i dontbknow how many hours copying a drawing i saw on piterest. its not "good", but I look at it and I'm in disbelief, what do you mean I MADE THIS??? it was my first attempt at shading and I've used a grid because I suck at proportions, which makes me feel slightly less proud but it took so fucking long that I don't care. I don't know what I'm doing anymore. it's like 4 am where I live and I've been at my desk for maybe 5 hours or slightly less.jesus christ. I have responsibilities and exams coming up but this same cycle has repeated for 3 days straight. k just get sucked into it and there's no way for me to do anything but just obey my hands. I'm not even good at it but I don't care and im produ of myself. at the same time I really need to stop because it's affecting my overall ability to function + physical health (my sleep schedule is fucked uppp plusI have back problems and this isn't helping but I genuinely can't stop.) has anyone experienced this??? im so lost

also my head hurts do much. ive spent maybe three hours just shading this shit because i kept making random mistakes and i felt dissatisfied with everything, probably because i couldnt tear my eyes awya from it.im tring to sleep but i CANT an d i think ive spurt a few blood vessels in my eyes because i forget to blonk