My 24th birthday is on August 21st. I want to go to a Gothic or metal scene here but I'm not finding anything too worthwhile on my own. My friends can't make it for my birthday and I really want to celebrate this year. Maybe even meet some new people! Any suggestions would be much appreciated!
Just as the title says, I desperately need help. I'm (23F) and I am disabled. I'll skip the sob story and stick to what's important. I have really bad back and neck issues that limit my mobility and make it extremely painful to do repetitive actions such as: bending, leaning, wiping, reaching, and standing.
I shamefully live in a hotel and have my whole life stuffed into one room. I've lived here for 5 years and have always had trouble keeping it clean for long. Every time I get it clean, it only stays that way for a week at most, but most of the time it only stays this way for a couple of days.
I tried everything it feels like, sitting to clean, motivational videos, cleaning in 5 minute increments, buying a bunch of organization bins, cleaning in sections, just doing one thing a day, ect. I'm so overwhelmingly depressed that there are a lot of days where I just throw my trash next to my bedside instead of a trash can which at that point is most likely over flowing. After I'm done using something like my arts and craft stuff, I just lay it on the pile next to me instead of where it goes, maybe a foot away from me. I don't even brush my teeth everyday anymore. I'm so ashamed and embarrassed. I was not raised this way, and cannot stand living in a mess like this.
I can't have anyone here, not even family or cleaners, and if my landlord saw this mess, I'd lose my only home. I have cleaning supplies and I have the want to clean but every time I try I end up hurting myself, even when I use a grabber arm to help pick stuff up, and I get depressed because I have to live in my own mess. It feels like no matter how hard I try, I just can't do it.
My place has black mold, and no matter how many organizers I buy it always feels like something doesn't have a place to go so it ends up on the floor or in a collective pile in a corner. My bathroom is TINY and I have a tiny bathroom cart but my counter space still gets filled up really quickly. I have too many things for such a small space but I've already given up so much of my stuff. I can't get myself to part with much else considering most of my stuff I have now are necessities. The only things I own that aren't, are my hobbies like my crafts.
To keep this as short as possible and to sum things up: I'm depressed, disabled, and it feels like I have tried everything but can't seem to keep my tiny place clean. Any advice is welcome.
Maybe someone has some advice that I haven't tried yet. I'll post before and after pics if I'm able to get this place clean. I need it for my physical and mental health. I got 3 trash bags of trash up today and am able to put my feet on the floor next to my bed now, but it feels like nothing. Thanks for any advice in advance!